Deep Thoughts

2007-04-07T21:43:00.000+08:00

BLOG MOVED!!

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Ok..okposting now..

2007-03-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

Good Day to All!!!

I like finally have time to update. Ok this month even thou its like my holidays its damn packed! Super Uber Packed!!! And i'm sorry to those whom i rejected to meet up constantly and to those whom i havent't had time to talk to.

Ok so now it's 6 days since i last posted..and people have been asking me to write more moronic, retarded and stupid antics that have happened since then..

Well.. ahah there were none!!NONE!!maybe some might beg to differ..

So..
on the 13th tuesday..
Went out with slenger babi Van. We went escape theme park cos i had 3 free tickets and i could not find the other one to go with me.. So i brought van along. We stuffed our bags in the locker. Went straight up to the Rainbow. It was fun luh!! i like the feeling... damn nice..den we went to this machine which will spin and flip us.. i dunnoe la ..ehh den we went to the viking.. which we sat and talked casually if the girl infront of me wanted to uke and whether we wanted to try bunjee jumping and sky diving.. that ride was awfully boring..then we went to wet and wild.. ok there were hills we were suppose to fall from.. i did not know that..van was making dat face. IDIOT! oh oh!! there were 4 guys.. Van's favourite people.."THE MAT COOL". hahaha.. damn funni.. I was drenched by the time the ride ended. It rained a little after that cos van sang "shall be coming round the mountain" it of cos got heavier.. Had a ride on the rainbow again to dry us off. Oh we went to the haunted house and Van scared the kids. eveil rite. their reactions were classic! After taht.. i got a little whoozy so we ate at BK there..IT WAS A RIPP OFF!!! URGHH SO EXPENSIVE! AND THEY HAD NO BBQ TURKEY!! Ate fish.. but i did not finish it.. i think my throat was sick from all the rides..cos i kept saying there was something wrong with the food. but van just ate them..

Overall: Was boring.. so little rides.. Enjoyed Van's company thou..Love ya babe!

went to teach tuition at My uncle's house.. My cousin is a little slow at recognising words so if you have any idea how i can help him pls tell so..he is Primary 1. Reached home at 1230am.

14th & 15 feb wed/thurs
I researched on fyp stuff. Then i got a bad cold and fever... rested the whole day.

16th: friday

eh woke up at 6
8am-- meet dan at pasir ris.
11am - Tution
230 - FYP meeting
6- Singapore symphony orchestra..
1030 reached home

I soooooo LOVE THE ORCHESTRA!!it was fantastic! i loved it to the very core!! the cello and the violins.. its as if they are speaking to each other and the flute, trumpet ,oeboe and the drums were keeping their conversation light!!!They arenot even trying to outdo each other they just sync in a very harmoniousway with each of them having distinct character! i don't know if you understand me. that was how i felt when i heard it... was so pleasant..i hoped the theatre was rid of noisy kids.. there are so irritating.
the conductor is kinda cute.. heh.

i CAN'T UPLOAD MY PICTURES!!!! WHY WHY WHY SO MUCH PICTURES TO UPLOAD!!

-THE ONES WIT ZHEN AND CLUB
- THE ONES WIT VAN
- THE ONES WIT PRIS
- THE ONES THAT I WANTED TO POST SINCE YESTERYEARS..

2007-03-10T01:32:00.000+08:00

Okies!! im back...

Actually i wanted to use my life journal account. But i was too lazy to do the dunnoe how many gazzillion things...so im sticking to this for now..

Updates:
My calender is uber packed!!so i'll just do a one shot blog.

Went out with Qiao Yuan last tuesday.. haha we had a 'great' time jumping from palces just to get her card working...It was Choa chu kang... then to Vivo..then we met her friend at china town to get her hair cut.Went home early to conference with the babes..

Ok... so picnic with them lovelies on the 17th. whole day event..haha.. im COOKING fried chicken wings. and maybe bake some cookies..

I caught a movie with amirah on thursday cos Acer was giving out a pair of free ticket so i decided to ask her out...Had a blast!!! Ami i have the song that you wanted all thanks to Mr rizal.

Had FYP meeting on friday.. Caleb (supervisor) said i looked funny when im stressed. Im not stress dats just my face when im asking question hello?? The whole team of cos laughed their asses off..

Going to a medical conference this saturday.. wait its today isnt it.. haha okies...i sound very bimbotic..
Going escape with van on the 13th...then prolly meet Qiao Yuan...Ive got to teach tuition later on to my cousin..And another tuition on friday..which im gonna have a fyp meeting...

Ahh so much thing to do in such little time..

then 19-31 march.. dun bother asking me.. im booked. work+tuition+meetings+party

What a life! Workaholic!!

2007-02-22T18:30:00.000+08:00

To All :

Happy Chinese New Year!!

ok first of all.. blogger is being very very very bitchy to me today. It doesn't want to upload my pictures.

Anyways, I am so HATING GROCERY SHOPPING. Today was the worst of all. Ok you guys might be wondering why the hell am i doing that when i have my mum and dad to do it for me. I'm staying at my grandfather's cos he is feeling unwell.Helping him with the shopping.

So he gave me a list of things to buy.

Grocery List:

5 tomatoes
ginger
spinach
dragon fruit
grapes
bean sprouts
cranberry juice
3 bottles of water any water.

Then he wants me to get these food for him.

2 Fillet O fish. - 1 meal and the other just the burger.

1 more french fries and an apple pie.

2 Prata kosong

Might i REMIND you he is sick. grrrrr...and he is eating all these junk.

He lives in Toa payoh where all thes things are not centralised.

My Journey:

I went to get the prata first since its way out of the route. Bought them had to wait cos they were cooking. How stupid i thought all is already made and just packed it up.

BOO TO THEM!!

Got myself kway teow. it was faster than the prata man.

Then i went down to the NTUC. So i got the tomato first. got them and get the lady to put a tag on it. Then ginger.. First and foremost..WHAT is GINGER?? i know what they look like but i wasnt sure whether it was the white one or the orange one. So i bought both. and i don't know HOW MUCH/MANY to buy. So i got both for 1.30 bucks each kind.

Then i went to get the spinach.. Again. HOW DOES A SPINACH LOOK LIKE. There weren't any english names!! I was like helllo??2ost century! Where is ENGLISH?? So i got this leavy thing which is " Chye Syn" <- heck i don't know how to spell. It looks leafy enough so i bought it.

Then i went to the dragon fruit.. EH I KNOW HOW IT LOOKS LIKE. Then the paper put there choose the sweet one. I was like .. OH MAN... HOW ???THEY ALL LOOK ALIKE!!! Then this lady came up. I decided to see how she chooses it..She ws smelling it. A thought came to me how do u smell it. its not like Durians. -.-" Den she was picking them.. but i still cant see how she picks it. Heck. Another man came next to her and start to squish it.. i was like "oh i did that they all feel the same to me." After doing all those the two put only ONE inside their basket. How RETARDED!!!!

So smart Nisa went up there.. and just took two of those they set aside for their 2nd elimination round. ahahahah...I think i did good. Or.. i'll just wait for my grandfather to eat it.See the results then.

Lucky me!! the bean sprouts are being packed already!! ahahahah!!! yeyness!!

Then i went to the grape section. He wanted the red kind .SWEET. I was like.. ok.. how do i know if its sweet?? -.-" So i just went there and I was so tired cos i was like 45mins there... just looking and choosing for the things mentioned above... I just took the one in the packet. Its red. I don't know if its sweet. heck.

Then i went up the aisle to get the Cranberry juice.. i forgot..he wanted the BIG packet..So with the things in my shopping basket with the hot kway teow and the prata i was like oh shit i need to make 2 trips.. i was like freak man..took the juice.. my hands were tired by then and i was in a cranky mood.Went to the cashier to pay for them.

At the cashier..there were two ladies talking to each other. I 'accidentally' heard them gossiping about a fellow friend.One of this stupid monkey of a buffon lady turned and was coughing at my face.. i was like WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM. She said "excuse me" to her FUCKING FRIEND. HELLO??!!! I wonder what is wrong in this picture... SHE COUGHED AT ME not her stupid FRIEND. i was so pissed and i said." My goodness.. you need a breath mint!" She just stared at me. The cashier sensing danger asked her for her stuff. She stared at me and was whispering to her friend. beside me was a row of breath mints and i was like.." hey you want one?". Lucky the nice cashier lady asked for her stupid money.The cashier and some other nice people actually saw all that happened so she told me to calm down and forget about this kind of people. I was nice to her and said thank you with a big smile.

With all the heavy stuff i went back to grandfather's house to deposit them. Then i went down back to the NTUC to get the drinks. This time, i was faster. Got them and went straight to the cashier at the second story. A lady infront of me apparantly was doubting that the cashier counted the stuff correctly and asked her to rescan them again. I was " MY GOODNESS IS IT ME OR EVERYBODY IS TRYING TO BE A BITCH TODAY?"

it was packed since it was going home office hour and for you to do this kind of things is damn inconsiderate. she should just checked the reciept. LAZY BITCH!I waited in line for a full 20 mins! Guess what after that the stupid bitch did not take her membership card so MY cashier.. who was suppose to be tending to ME saw her card and told me she wuld be right back to chase that stupid bitch. She came back 10 mins later. I was soooooo pissed by then and i Knew it wasn't the cashier fault so i just gave her a small smile when i went out.

I realised i forgot the stuff i was suppose to buy at MC Donalds. I was like... wat the freak....rushed there. and got the stuff. The lady at the counter was slower than a tortise. Seriously and she still could talk to her stupid friend who was just as slow as her. The manager saw the grumpy face of mine and the customer next to me.( the slow aunties are side by side) Rushed to the rescue. She gave me all my things within 5 mins. I was like wow that is fast so i gave him a smile.

I reached home at 645pm. I went out at 430. See lah.. that was the longest shop i had. Today was bad luck.. all the casier i went to either have some problems or just that they suck at servicing.

I went back home and my grandfather said... "eh u got the wrong kind of vegetables" i was like huh? then he said " i want spinach not chye syn. then i told him i don't know what is what and i was too tired to go down again.. He laughed and then told me its ok. He said he wanted ginger.. 1 was enough.. i was like i din noe. Its ok.. keep for stock!!

I bathed and now typing the series of events to you.. More calmed.. the apple pie i took it from him.. heh heh...

2007-02-18T16:54:00.000+08:00

Hey darlings

its been a long time since i updated. Anyhows, i'm so glad i'm finally relaxing now. The pressure is off. I'm also researching on nueropathy for diabetic patients. It's for my final year project. I think i'll die....its damn difficult and i'm afraid i'd fail...

Monkey sis.. dun be afraid okies... ill come see you soon!!I promise.... heh.. i miss you so much and i have a lot to tell...i feel so tired without ur laughter...as if energy is sucked out from within me.

I need to take a bath now.. yeah now.. i havent bathe since just now.. ahahahah...I'm gonna go help my aunt move out.. heh heh... jeng jeng jeng.. maybe can get something for cyriva club room... hahah..

jules! pris!! riri!!vannn!! zhen!!joey!! suria!!! weiii.....meet up sooon okies???

bye now... i needa bathe..*grins*

2007-02-09T13:25:00.000+08:00

A BIG HUGE THANK YOU TO JULES, SHARIN,VAN AND PRIS!!!!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE THE PRESENT YOU GAVE ME! YOU GUYS ARE THEEEEEE BEST!!!

Even thou they are like a month and a half late..-.-"

i still appreaciate it!!! hahahah... thanks for the comic strips of me and *ehem*. I'll smack ur butts when I see you again.

Damn touching what you wrote. I couldn't stop grinning from ear and i read it while doing lab work. Hahah end up kena hint hint by my facilitator.. But I DUN CARE!! I read and reread those words..man...I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!

I'll post the pics up when i have the camera or when im free enough to do that.

Once again. thank you! and I really love you guys to bits!

Would Somebody just listen?

2007-02-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

I'm like freaking lost and pretty upset right now. Maybe for the fact that so much things tend to crumble down when I least expect it to. This has got to be the worst start of year I have had.Seriously, I feel like just hugging someone so tightly and just let all my jammed up feelings and sorrowness to just gush out!! So much things happened that I haven't had the time to sit and reflect on my actions that I have taken pertaining to the situations that I was in.

This semester grades are so so so much worse than the last semester. I just could not understand what the hell was going on half of the time in class. Some lesson are just painfully boring to sit through that I shut down. Which of course the sucky grades, that I have, logically follows. I haven't completed the PP i was suppose to have completed by now. Which sucks.

Also, I miss all my friends terribly that I think I'm starting to wonder if the reason I was hanging on to them was solely because they HAD been there for me during secondary school. I don't really know what is going on inside my mind right now as it's all messed up. I think what I am about to say might hurt them right now. But then again, this is MY blog. It's where i state whatever I think or want.

Is the reason we are all still together was because we WANT to or we HAVE to. Have to because of the sense of attachment where we regard ourselves as best friends. OR want to because of each persons' respective reasons. The argument here is that if we WANT to we'd roughly know what the others are doing and keep regular contact.Not just meeting up. I feel as if each of us HAVE to be together.As if we are binded to these words"best friends". I don't know what was going on with you and you have no idea what was going on with me. Please do not take this the wrong way, I am just stating what I think and feel. Correct me if I'm wrong.

Sister was admitted to the hospital.. Grandma too. I was scared then. I haven't visit grandma yet as she is in the different hospital as my sister was. Journey from KK Womans & Children Hospital to Singapore General Hospital is quite taxing. I haven't have much sleep for the past few days. Freak! I'm getting weaker.

It's Sharin's Birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Sorry I wasn't at your celebration. I did want to go. I just couldn't for the reason I have told you. Sorry for making you upset.

Soccer. Singapore won! I'm a little happy I guess.

All these while I have no idea to where I am heading. And I still don't. I wonder if I am doing the right thing.

sorry for the things that i have not done
sorry for the promises that were broken
sorry for not being there
sorry for upsetting you
sorry for being helpless
sorry for hating you
sorry for failing
sorry for screaming
sorry for keeping my silence
Sorry..for EVERYTHING.

Maybe you should know how it feels to be left outside alone
Maybe you know how it should feels to be left broken
Maybe you should know why I was so afraid
Maybe you should know how it feels to be helpless
Maybe you should know how it feels to have people not recognise your sorrows
Maybe you should know why I am keeping my silence thus far
Maybe you should know.
Just Maybe.

Would you help?
Would you try?
Would you ask?
Would you hug me?
Would you tell me all is fine?
Would you be there to catch when I fall?
Would you?
Or will you laugh?

I'm left confused.
I'm left helpless.
I'm left hurt.
I'm left wondering.
I'm left with nothing.

Retardedness

2007-01-27T23:47:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Joan!

I was the first person to arrive from the secondary school bunch of friends. Haha! And I was supposedly be the LATE one. Anyways, the party was alright. Joan's dad and mum were very nice to me and tellling me that all the food there was Halal.

Res n Feez came later. Alicia and the Girls came soon after.. It was fun meeting everybody up since the last time we sat and ate together catching up on old times. Claudia and Alicia were damn funny. The girls were just really fun people.

And Joan.. your polytechnic friends were the most immature idiots I have ever known. Seriously and to think they were guys. Bleah.Your church friends were alright I guess.Different from you but overall alright.Very Guai...

Hugs Joan..So fast you reach 19.. I'm not even a month form being 18. Haha.

So irritating

2007-01-22T01:59:00.000+08:00

Listen UP!

Seriously if any of you people need to tell me something so badly. Just do so. i HATE people who give me sms playing with my mind. It's damn tiring to think. Just freaking tell me. Messages after messages came in AND...

SERIOUSLY I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU PEOPLE WANT TO TELL ME. COULD YOU PEOPLE JUST COME STRAIGHT TO THE POINT SO THAT I DUN EVEN NEED TO WASTE MY MONEY ON SMS-ES?

its damn retarded . for god's sake we're not children anymore. we're adults. behave like one. i dun need ur sympathy or anything of that sort. i can stand up by myself, THANK YOU VERY MUCH. HATE ME i'm SARCASTIC. Its damn retarded to have so many people against me . Picking up points to where each one of ALL OF u having to say the exact SAME thing about me. damn you people are BORING. And I havent started mine yet.
Speaking of which i'd prefer if you people speak PROPERLY. Its damn irritating to have all of you speaking at once. Its just so JUVENILE. I have been patient and KIND enough to be nice and holding back all my SARCASM.
If you can't stsand it HEY, THE EXIT'S THAT WAY. I BELIEVE EACH OF YOU HAVE TWO LEGS AND AN INTELLIGENT ENOUGH MIND TO GUIDE YOURSELF OUT?OR AM I WRONG TO SAY THAT. Either way, WALK THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION OF ME, if you have any sense of direction at all.
hey sulk all you want . the world ain't gonna change for you. Please look around you there aint no bowl which says FOR FREE.
OH and one LAST IMPORTANT ADVICE for you people. GET OUT OF YOUR DIAPERS YOUR MUM GAVE YOU. AND GET INTO THE REAL WORLD. THE WORLD HAS ENOUGH BABIES DROOLING THEIR SALIVA ALL OVER THE FLOOR. CLEAR YOU OWN MESS. SADLY TO SAY there ain't no diapers big enough for any of you . SUCK IT UP .GROW UP.

please feel free to call me if you have anything that is INTELLIGENT and WHICH WILL TRY TO SOLVE OUR DIFFERENCES in the fastest way. I'll be waiting. DUN BOTHER SMS-ing. ( by the way, if you're still wearing the diaper, DON'T BOTHER CALLING.YOu're not INTELLIGENT enough.)

I HOPE MY INSIGHT HAS HELPED ALL OF YOU IN EVERY POSSIBLE WAY.

2007-01-21T00:54:00.000+08:00

the bloody blogger does not have an automatic scroller...so i gotta type it out..here goes:

WHAT'S YOUR SEDUCTION STYLE?

THE ESCAPE ARTIST.

We don't know how you figured it out, but you've manged to keep your lover close despite your critical view of the world. Maybe you aren't cynical just a little curious. Either way you've manged to keep your head on your shoulders. You do have a little bit of misanthrophy going on up in there but hey when you build your solar powered cabin in the woods everything would be fine.

It's very rare to meet someone so clever that isn't into taking advantage of romantic or sensitive people. Your best seduction move:be your honest and insightful self. A straight shooter( even a slightly damaged straight shooter) is a fine catch for everyone.

i got this quiz from my dear van, man.. escape artist...
tsk tsk...

man.. im a STRAIGHT SHOOTER... woo hoo.. marksman babe!! and im so clever that its so rare on having me!! woo hoo... too all out there.. love me!! lalalala....
hahaha anyways... its interesting.. go take it!!

MONKEY SIS, JULES, RIRI, PRIS, AIZHEN, JOEY, PERFECTING PAIN individuals...
go do the quiz. post it on ur blog.heh heh heh

2007-01-10T20:01:00.000+08:00

I Wonder what is it like to feel safe
could you tell me?

dahh dah dum

2007-01-08T00:54:00.002+08:00

FINALLY I WATCHED......

A NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM!!!

Its a damn bloody hillarious show la.Went with my cousins..

There was 10 of us... hahah we took the whole row in the theatre...age ranginng from 18 - 5...

had to mind the young ones which shortened my life span about 10 years.

Ok...So now im broke. Its the starting of the year and i feel MISERABLE.yes. MISERABLE.

Im so tired i wished someone would shipped me a 2 month holiday all-expense-trip to Europe. ANYBODY??

I dunno wats up with my family. I feel edgy around them. I feel like we are becoming strangers. I can only talk to my sis freely. Its pitiful actually.

AHHHH.. im getting too EMOSIFIED!!! shuddup nisa! SHUDDUP!!

ok... i miss being sarcastic to the extreme. Sometimes when i say something sarcastic.. some people just dun get them. Weird. I miss having a sarcastic remark thrown at me and me retorting to it. Weird ah me.Hell i dun care.

Busy schedule:

-planning for dinner n dance for the graduates

- participating in - Inter-tertiary Bio quest 2007

-Open house

- Buzzzer Bazzaar

-Runnning for MC in next AY

Well for the open house we have to discuss with the IGs under us. Oh yeah we planned the shifts out too!! I'm with zhen all the way!! CAM WHORING!!maybe can find pris n jules in the art department. Then we can see joey n van n yen kai n roy n ppl in sports in the sports area.

Aww ur so sweet nisa...

My uncle went back to new zealand!!! he came to visit.. so was talking to my cousins.. aged 8-4. Man their social skills improved and their english has a SLANG to it.. so fun.. weird they dun understand singaporean slang.. so i had to slang it their way. I felt soo english.. haha they are cool.. asked me to go there when i have the money..(which sadly to say i might not be going)

I miss them.

i feel that i have drifted from my friends.

bad nisa. (random)

Bleah

2007-01-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

Long since ive updated.

OK so.. happy belated birthday to me.

Urghh... i can't stand it when i come home and the house is in a mess and then MOM MADE ME DO THE CLEANUP when i WASN'T even at home for the whole day. Seriously it gets on my nerve so much that i think i nearly got slapped by her because i retorted.

Its damn bloody unfair lah and wats more i havent been at home often. So that bloody mess wasnt even me. She keeps on nagging that she has to do it when i was little and yada yada yada the SERMON goes on. seriously its ARGHHH!

And my brother. better sit next to the TV eating and playing PS2. wth! She really make my blood boil lah. Ive been cleaning the house till late night lah and come back to find it in a mess. I mean ok lah whose house is not messy. but if u were to clean up after yourself instead of putting it aside till late the house would be a lil messy. i wuldnt mind doing.

but if u stack up plates till they r so dirty in the sink which is clogged with rubbish by the way and the rubbish is not in the plastic bag. Wat the hell?! Im bloody tired after a days work ok. And i have to do more when i come back.

I think when i go to school u people will see me in panda eyes. I slept at 7 in the morning almost everyday and wake at noon.or sometimes in the morning.

Anyways..life is busy. Will make it up when i have more time. Open house is coming Yikes!!

2006-12-23T00:38:00.000+08:00

This week had been the most cruel week I've been in.

Don't close the door
I need to see the light
to guide me out
of this endless hell

i've been lost
oh so many times i hold back
these tears that yearns to be free
Can i let them go now?

The problems that i thought were small
Why are they growing ?
The ground shook as i tried to move it
Have i been making mistakes?

And that pile
Its wrenching my strength to stand
I can barely go further
And too late to retreat.

Can i leave it here?
Can i just throw it away?
Can i just burn and let it turn to ashes?
Why can't I reach you shoulder no longer?

Could you just lend me your ears?
Just lend me your strength
For me to plough through
Can you help me with these weights?

Why aren't you turning to the direction of my calls
Have you forgotten me?
Or have i ceased to exist in your life?
Could you at least give an answer?

Anyways..i QUIT art club. I havent told jules nor pris about this. Oh how i am gonna miss george and hadif and chris...I just havent the strength to do what i have been doing.. yes i think i am a quitter.

I could not be bothered about the things that matter anymore. My birthday is coming yet dad... i guess forgot about it again. He has missed 3 years of my birthday already. Have i been insignificant?

The website that im doing for cyriva is really demanding me of my time. I don't know if im able to do it. The inspiration that i normaly have does not flow through. Am i growing weaker?

God i wished there was someone i could let it all out to. but everytime i see them they;re overshadowed by their own problems. It would be hard to burden them. maybe i should just quit whatever comitments that i have.

Is it alright to hate? But to hate is so tiring. Im TIRED! Self pity is SOOO DEPRESSING.

Looking myself like this is so depressing. Christmas this year is going to be a painful one. Birthday..let's just forget that.

2006-12-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

HELP!

Situation: My brother gave me a lyric. Asked me to sing it. So he "teaches me" me how to sing and sand for me once. So ok fine heard him.. guess wat.

HE WAS DAMN BLOODY MONOTONOUS!!

Thus i have no idea where is the high where is the low.. seriously it was dumb ok.DUMB! I dun even noe where's the cue... like seriously..Then he scolds me as if it was my fault... grrr... AND WE HAVE BEEN AT IT FOR THE PAST 45 MINUTES!!

Seriously. KILL ME! KILL ME!!

This would be the first and the last time i am gonna help him... grrr

Anyways overnight at Karyn's this sunday..can't wait. i missed her alot.

AIZHEN: come back fast babe!!

oh and i need to learn hw to play tennis.

I love and miss

2006-12-04T22:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST SLENGER BABI!!

aka VANESSA, THE DARK AND ________.

(feel free to fill in the blank)

I MISS YOU !!I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!!

HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!

Those are the words when i went into msn!!

Had Amazing race on saturday! It was fun i tell ya!! I really enjoyed my day with Carrin!! She was my helper for the day! Ashley and Kelly too.. so my station was at the Changi Airport. We waited there..went to have lunch at burger king... then shop around bought 2 cute massager one for me and one for Vanny!! TODAY is her BIRTHDAY!!!

Den got very bored went to Terminal 1.. den went to COFEE BEAN! coolness.. and chocolate cake and belgium Cjocolate ice blended!!! NISA IS SOO OGONNA GET FATTT!!!

I think Amazing race was a sucess!! I really like it so much! i wanna thank all those who made this possible!!

Hmm.. oh yeah today when i was eating... Dad raised this question again..." You wanna go Australia and study? Is RP good for ya?"

hmm i dunno.. i know my future is not that bright as of now... I think i wanna finish RP and see where it leads me to.. if not.. I think i wanna go University... Australia most probably...

AND MY DEAREST HUNNEY!! JOEY BABY!!! I'D TELL YOU IF I WERE TO GO!!Dun worry too much yeah!! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!

AND TO ALL OF YA OUT THERE!! MY HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!! I'M FREE!! (while stock lasts)LOL...BOOK ME??

wed(6/12/06) - going out wit E25N.

A day went BLEAH!!

2006-12-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

I have sooo fallen in love with this lyric!!

What hurts the most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don’t bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok

But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I’m doin’ hard to force that smile when

I see our old friends and I’m alone

Still HarderGetting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that

I saved in my heartThat I left unspoken

What hurts the most Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowingWhat could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowingWhat could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That’s what I was trying to do

Nice right.. Anyways...no I'M NOT EMO! just that i got this song and its very nice!! Gosh tomorrow is the Amazing Race. And to be in school at 7 am!! OMG i'm gonna faint! I hope it goes on smoothly cos i'm so tired of all the meetings. Anyways i'm gonna get fed up if it doesnt go well cos i had compromised my social circle just by concentrating on the club.

And today on our way home.. saw those MAT ROCKER or whatever lah.. They go and shout minah tudong sucks ah and all dat.. i mean i was passing them with the cyriva club peeps. And i was the only minah tudong there.. hahah.. well I AM NOT A MINAH TUDONG.. but the fact remains that i wore the tudong.

Anyways back to the point... They are muslims.. god i'm so ashamed of saying this,, but anyways... Seriously if you dun like me hell as if i do care.. u needn't should like mad hooligans pulling their pants down. Have some respect .. SERIOUSLY IF NOT FOR ME AT LEAST HAVE SOME FOR THEIR OWN INTEGRITY..

Instead of embarrasing me they just embarrased themselves... and i'd like to add they are not very fresh people.. they dun wash i reckon.. HECK! PATHETIC!

oh wells... i hope they realise this soon. It's getting pretty childish...

Other than that... no.. i dun have any problems.. hahaha... oh yeah.. i took something to do with pharmacy as my elective. I hope i get it.. it looks difficult but worth a try. I always have wanted to this kinda things.

NIghts people!!

Infinite Confusion

2006-11-29T17:19:00.000+08:00

ok. I'm kinda feeling shitty these days. I feel as if I have none to talk to. And to know that it was quite depressing. I'm ok when im in school. butwhen i get all alone at night i feel so wasted. I feel so lost that sometimes i dun realise people talking to me. To make matters worse I can't sleep well at night. Now i have to think of what PP to do. I need to finish it fast as the FYP is coming up.

Enita asked if i wanted to be in her team i said yes .. hahah ok.. i think i'll be the stupidest in the group cos all of them are foreigners i think.. all from mynmar... die man..

I feel sick these days.. really .. the feeling of puking when you smell something so revolting that you can't stand it. But i am not sick. just feel sick. HAH.

Amazing race will be this saturday. So yeah. Hope it runs smoothly.

Carrin's birthday was yesterday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!

I wanna go play that stupid winning eleven.. seriously i know its an ancient game.. but i cant seem to pass the damn ball to the right people. Its getting on my nerves thou.. bleahh!!

2006-11-26T10:14:00.000+08:00

Today is my first free day.

I met Lisha on friday!! Ahhh happy happy!!.. she came to school.. sadly she have to leave early.. Went home with riri tooo since a long long time ... As per normal Crapped all the way

Gonna meet monkey sis and chew wei n shuek... going to vivo!! heh heh heh.. finallly I'm going vivo.. so late i know. shuddup.

ok lah gtg get ready.. I'm forever late.

sUMMARY

2006-11-20T15:55:00.000+08:00

Microcontroller UT tomorrow.. hahaha guees what I'm doing now?

Well.. other than digging my own grave...

I'm blogging!!! ahh so smart!!! <the lameness overcame me>

Anyways... I'm looking forward to spending time with my monkey sis...Ehh lets see what you have been missing in my life....

Last Monday: Meeting with cyriva club!! Amazing Race is taking my LIFE!!! seriouslu... I sometimes get so tired that i wished i could just dump all the planning and whatever not in the dumpster.. better still in the rain since it has been raining so much.. oh oh oh i KNOW!!! THE DRAIN!!! bLEAH !!!

Last Tuesday: Had Art... So yeah... paint more.. just realised that i had painted the wrong things with the wrong colors.. thus having to repaint. was so pissedwith myself la... i mean instead of doling one work.. i did many many many double triple quardraple work!!! So yeah..

Last Wednesday: Went for microcontroller workshop.. ahahah. ok la.. nt bad.. i din noe wat the hell SALLY was mumbling about... I woke up when Eugene spoke.. of cos he is my micro teacher.. so woke up from my stoning posture...then listen him speak. wah speak so fast.. den finish.. den had to do the codes... MIND YOU!! PEOPLE WHO DO VB... THIS IS WORSE THAN VB TIMES 10+++++ After the workshop, went to the art room to finish the bloody panel which is taking so long to finish up.. anyways... nearly done.. so 2morro 21st Nov,.. Hadif and I and maybe Chris... will stay back lah try to finish up whatever we can... =]

last Thursday: Went home to find the house in a mess.. My pig-like siblings are just lowly slobs.. Seriously they woke up late, mess teh kitchen and didn't do their plates... Urghh.. was so pissed.. I told them off and proceed to doing watever not i was suppose to do. Was a little pissed that MEIG moved the meeting to friday. Urgghh cos it will clash with Cyriva...

Last Friday: Meeting with cyriva!!! yes again...-.-".. I was late... then the banner gave me problems...And the MEIG meeting was crap.. Our new advisors know nothing lah.. what the hell???????????????? I feel like killing them!! woah Piang ehs!!! how i wished Pavitra was here..Then rushed to cyriva club.. tie the loose knots fer Saturday meeting with the helpers...

Last Saturday: Meeting with helpers. had fun with carrine.. she's my helper.. hahah..so yeah...

Last sunday: Slept in!! woo hooo!!! Didi the banner... Disturb my siblings.. play catching.. then got scolded by mummy..=[.. den sleeeeep!!!

TODAY, MONDAY: Lay Peng treated us pizza and the other was for charity. So yeah ate the pizza...nice!! I think RITz is better than Canadian Pizza!! realli!!!!

ok i NEEED TO BAKE COOKIES!!! SERIOUSLY!!!! aNY HELPERS?!

2006-11-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

Sighss...

I'm a little dissapointed..Some people backed out... BUT.. i noe the reasons.. and anyways its my damn bloody fault lah fer not telling earlier... like seriously... this sucks big time..

Ain't no mood fer anything right now... just wondering how it'll be 2morro...sighs...

2006-10-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

Sayangs!!!

I'm back!! Haha!

So wats been happening? eh... oh ooh!! i did someting stupid today... um i went to a fren's class la... but the class was like the opposite of mine.. so everything is in reverse..REVERSED! sooooo...

i went to the girls toilet ah.. den i din look at the door... so...haha i went in to find :

2 SOCKED GUYS WHO WERE PEEING... can u imagine.. the anoder stupid thing that i did i stood there and said:

ehh.. heh. sorry... and went out liek nothing happened...

what else?! in the girls toilet i was like " wtf am i doing??!!!" seriously wah laus.. i was in there for very long lah...like beating myself up in my mind.. seriously it was freaking embaraassing...

the worst part was... i kept bumping into them..i din try to look in their eyes lah. but rite... we always like look coincidentally... wah piang paiseh paiseh!!! and i found out that they were classmates...

seriously come to think of it.. why in the world are they peeing together.. they are not gals sehs.. wah laus... paisehs!!

I told vanny babes abt this... man... its just like she says.. im retarded..period.

PEOPLE!! SATURDAY 4TH OF NOVEMBER.. COME MY HOUSE!!! OPEN HOUSE!! HEH!! COME!
ALL ARE INVITED... SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEOPLE!!

gloomy faces...

2006-10-26T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hey people...its been a long time since i updated...shall update now..

Last day of Fasting:

Woah!! i tell you I ate a little... hahaha the HOUSEWORK was like a mountain pile lah.. den my sis and i were like on a lookout fer a storage space to dump all my mum's nonsense.. so we came up with the most simplest but dangerous plan... heh heh heh...my daddy was in this too...

we cleaned her room.. well... more off my sis and dad cleaned the room.. while i sleep cos i did alot of work the previos nite... so.. they put aside her useless things like dunno how many years never use one [ imagine she still keeps these nonsense] say tt one put last... so everybody clened the house lah until the wee hours in the morning.. mum slept.. then we put the things outside of the house...

the next morning, all was cleaned.. daddy and bro went fer the prayers.. the ladies din.. we had to cook dishes to expect the hungry monsters coming [ my daddy side.. normally they come to our house to have the most feast.. mummy is the best cook among all.].. so yeah.. was cooking.. then my sis heard the garung guni man... hahah what else call lah.. den sold all the things.. wanna noe how much? $7 OKIES!!! haha quite alot... hehs... then after the selling we told her.. woah she went on a rampage lah [ ALERT ! ALERT!]

went to mummy's daddy side first... i dun really like that side so yeah.. heh chat and all..i love the cousins thou..not much things to say ecept fer my pervert cousin.. SHE likes to touch my assests... my god.. comparing with hers.. aiyai...

den went to daddy's parents... heh heh this is where all the fun starts... ahh take photo many many... chat like some crazy people.. disturb there disturb here... i tell you the whole house was like a market la... whatever nonsense was blabbered... and grandma's house were like so colourful.. so many people.. imagine the whole family is there with the maids and all.. it was like a kampong man.. too many people... FUYOOOOO i MUST say the house was suffocating by then.. it was hot.. imagine in ur kebaya with tudung u sit w/o fan with so many people... of cos man.. feel like a satay kena burn... tsk tsk
we half completed daddy side...

hari raya second day: today

ehh so woke up like at 9... i tot i was late fer sch man...den remembered it was a wednesday.. haha so yeah...no sch.. off day.. slacked around.. ans some emails.. and stuffs...
then we went to grandmother's sibling houses.. woah... our family quite big lah.. so the houses we went to can't fit all of us.. so some had to saty outside.. hahaha...guys...but... there were like 3 cars which din follow us.. and the houses cant fit us much.. so that was how big and rowdy we were...

**last time some of us no car.. so we took a lorry there.. its like those big big lorries... and my family filled the lorry...so that's a rough gauge fer u guys.. heh heh..

GLLOMY FACES:

hey guys i hope all of ya are feeling alright... hugs and kisses shower!!

Van soh and joeypoey... cheer up yeah.. hugs babes...

Izzy.. i hope ur feeling better.. ur sis is in my prayers...hugs too..

Mel: love ya babes.. hang in there.. hugs..

ok... now.. i wanna eat.. havent ate anything decent.. all kuihs and water... man im so gonna have a stomach ache 2morro... cheers!

Sighs

2006-10-15T21:48:00.000+08:00

People... i wonder if u ever felt like this before...

have u ever wonder when u tried so hard and gave your best to make things right. To have it worked out...it just falls on ya? MOre of crumbling on ya?Do you ever wonder which hurts more? The fact that you tried so hard and it fails or the fact that you just hurt the other party?

I'm really trying very hard here and i hope you understand what i'm trying to give you. I'm sorry if i have hurt you in any way. Its just not easy pleasing you.

Above fer that someone.You noe who u are.

2006-10-14T20:53:00.000+08:00

1)single, taken or crushing?
Single
2) Are you happy with your life now?
Yea
3) When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?
Nope.I need time
4) Have you ever been heartbroken?
yea
5) Do you believe that there are some circumstances, where cheating love is acceptable?
Cheat means Cheat. So like duh its not acceptable. wat kinda stupidquestion is that?!
6) Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
Nope..Say already..cheat means cheat.he can always cheat again.( i don't trust people easily)
7) Have you ever talked about marriage to someone else before?
Yeah
8) Do you want children?
MAYBE
9) How many?
1?
10) Would you ever consider adoption?
YEAH
11) If someone likes you now, what do you think is the best way for him to let you know his feelings?
Just come up front and tell me. I promise i wun laugh. heh joking.. just tell...=)
12) Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
Friendship relationship? yeah.. love-love relationship... ehh messy.. but when its nice its sweet. When its not its a nightmare.
13) Do you believe in love at first sight?
Nope.I say already i don't trust a person easily. How to love?
14) Do you believe you can change someone?
Change uh? Influence maybe.. change dun think so..
15) If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
Hotel I guess...but the official one maybe in the mosque.
16) Do you give in easily when you're fighting?
Eh sometimes only.. Im quite stubborn and an egoist.
17) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Yeah
18) Do you ever wish that you could have had someone, but you messed it up?
Yeah...But its not entirely MY FAULT!!
19) Have you ever broken a heart?
Yeah..duh rite..the previous question.. -.-"
20) If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you are deeply in love with, what would you do?
Den i'll let him go. I wun give up on my BEST FRIEND. I've shared more things with her than i have with HIM. so yeah..but i doubt so.. heh we have different taste in men.
21) Are you missing anyone right now?
Always..
22) Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs. Write down their names in the list below.

I wanna ask the peeps from PF01-02..but all of them taken by jules..-.-

1) Vanessa Soh - she havent done it yet!! =)
2) Aizhen zhen
3) Joey poey
4) Evelyn
5)perfect pain individuals

ok done the thingy.. actually i think its kinda stupid... the question are so.. sighs.. anyways..

arghhh!! hari raya is coming!! die die die!!! i have no time to clear my junk..sianz ah... More importantly i ran out of space to hide the *uh ummm* stuffs...

I just finish hanging off the curtains.. so i think with the high possibility that my mum might want me to iron all the new curtains to be put up and iron all the chairs fittings... suayness.. but never mind... hmm needto go and buy more standing fans.. they gave in when hari raya is coming.. what a nice timing.. suayness...

My sis and i are planning on how to get rid of mum's junk.... seriously she's taking up so much place... that all of us are void of.. So unfair... and now she wants to buy more... SHE DOES NOT COMPLY TO THE ALGEBRAIC SENTANCE. if u plus something u have to minus something.. she is happily adding everything without minusing anything... grrr....

This year's hari raya wun be so nice i guess.. sis is taking her o levels, mum and dad are working.. im prolly stuck somewhere having meetings..my brother is having his religious class PSLE.. so yeah... and truthfully speaking.. i dun wanna go to my mum's side... I dun really like it there... so scary.. i dun trust them the way i trust my daddy's side... i actually find them FAKE.they put on airs lah...

oh yeah starting next week im gonna bake the KUIH raya... heh heh i think the neighbour's sense of smell will be awaken to the delightfulness of my baking... hahahaha... yeyness.. Our priority now are cookies as they are always the ones being wiped out the first..Just give the cookies one week and then its finished... so i think i dun wanna bother myself with the unfavourables... i'm gonna make m&m's cookie and chocolate cookie and maybe a fudgie chocolate cake.. i need to bake something fer RIRI... she doesnt like chocolates that much..

UpDate!

2006-10-13T13:22:00.000+08:00

Aye aye... im updating updating jojo, joey poey, which is actually the same person.... aizhen and eve darling...ok...

Changed my blog . i dun really like the couple there. like soo uhh jiwang. anyways..I think its nice.

Currently in the boring class doing Circuit Analysis. My god this semester is drowning and dying my world black. I hate the modules lah.. more of the facilitator actually. The life being a club member is super demanding.. and the art IG is also demanding my attention. Sighs... SEG matters.. aiyai.. so messy...Seriously the school needs a better system that we students understand fully. Stupid Monkeys...

Anyways.. will be drawing a murial for the Art Ig. A collaboration by the Art club members since our trip to BALI. I'm super excited like madddd!! I'm gonna snap alot of pictures heh!!! It would be fun lah!!! i like it.. My picture MAY be made as the Center piece.. i love Julie's work!!!! so modern yet so traditional... ahahha contradictive.. i like..no..LOVE.. Ginnete's and Lisa's are great too... So were waiting fer the rest to finalise their sketches...

So people.. just for your information all Tuesdays I'm not free due to the art.... heh to those who wanna book me please make it a week in advance so i can plan for the next week. (tsk.. busy sia this woman.. but rite... not my fault one ok.)

I think fasting has made my body weak.. Like seriously i have no energy.. buts its good too.. heh..in a way...*beams*

oh great i want someone to go explain to me now.. i guess i'll see ya people sonn then.. byes!

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2006-09-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

....its been a long time since i blogged. Things here are pretty roughed up. Im falling sick like super fast. Moods change pretty quickly too...My schedule is too pack.. ahh need space need space!!

gramps just had an operation.. Dad's worried thou he looked as if hes ok. Ego.. I think i have that ego too sometimes... My brother..to no surprise failed his CA2. Thanks bro for all the yelling from mum and dad. Really appreaciate it.

what else...hmm besides neither meeting up nor talking much to my bestfriends... im feeling emotionally deprived. seriously.Its getting on my nerves.All i have with me is my good ol' buddy..my lappy. Which in no time will ceased to blow up due to excessive usage.

I think i'll ask my dad to hang a punching bag for me. I accidentally slashed my arm the other day while my cousin was holding the bloody knife in my direction. I din see it so yeah. HA! I think the pain was nice. Comforting. it reminds me i still can feel. Cos the other day i watch oprah and there was this gal whose nerves does not feel. She even chewed her hand. poked her eye.burn her fingers and broke her jaw. And she din realise that it was bad. thank god i can feel.

I'm tired. I'm scared. I'm pissed. I'm irritated beyond max.I'm sick.no.like literally.

tada... days

2006-08-26T00:30:00.000+08:00

Okie doks... here i am!! woo hoo.. its been a looong time since i blogged...
Just came home from the Annual Gradual Meeting.. which was boring me to death. And i was busy chewing the jelly beans to care what they have to say anyways.. It was taking a gazzilion years man...These are the pictures i took..the club members.. together.. opps.. eh got joey inside.. she wrong group already la...
*joey i edited the photos... hahaha better rite*

These are the photos i tok with aizhen and joeyyy!! the orangey like photos.. are the ones at pasta mania.. hah! ok.. guess wat.. i know pasta mania is soo not halal.. but i kind of ate there just now.. i ate banan pizza.. or so i think was wat it is called.. ohh and i got aizhen to smile showing her teeth....oh and the one wif me holding the peper thingy.. dat was me trying to sing and that hand belongs to joey who's supposedly droping the chilli flakes onto me.. =[...

oh oh i forgot. saiful became an exco member.. hahaha i wanna see his badge.. or collar pin.. aiya dunno la.. sumthing lah hor..

aites outs people.. enjoy the pics.

2006-08-21T12:32:00.000+08:00

You May Be a Bit Borderline...

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!
When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...
And when you're down, your whole world is crashing
Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!

What Personality Disorder Are You?

2006-08-21T12:28:00.000+08:00

You May Be a Bit Borderline...

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!
When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...
And when you're down, your whole world is crashing
Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!

href="What Personality Disorder Are You?

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2006-08-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

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So here i am blogging when i'm suppose to be studying fer the circuit analysis UT. Gosh why do they have to be so wicked as to put the damn UTs on the last days of school. The science students have it easy.. They finished their's like last Thursday.(courtesy of vannany information) NO fair!!

I read the 6 ppts la.. and i have no idea how the hell they derived the answer. Such long equations... grrr.. so irritating.... ohh and I'm planning to bake cookies fer my class heh.. and some of my friends too i hope.. so..i shall bake 2morro..

to my dearest classmates.. i am gonna miss you guys.. i hope we will be in the same class next sem.. and suria.. u owe my one ben and jerry's chocolate fudge....gonna mis the laughters and the stupid jokes.. i think u guys are one of the best people heh..=)) luvs many many..

to jen: sometimes friends that you show care for does not seem to see it. Trust me. Sometimes u just have to let them be. Friends come and go but they wun go so far.. Just keep in touch.. a hi msg or even saying u miss them will let them noe.. Dun give up yea.. hahah this is from an RP student who has to change classes EVERY SEMESTER. celebrate their bdae together or lunch or sumthing. I'm sure u can think of SOMETHING.luv u huns..

oh wells.. missing many people now.. I MISS YOU AND YOU AND YOU YOU YOU YOU!!!

freaking ouutt!!

2006-08-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

Freaking Out!

I've been having weird and scary dreams. And it ALWAYS ends up the same. I don't wanna alarm anybody and i REALLY PRAY HARD it wun happen. Its always me going out with a group of friends. Then we wanna cross a road. and that person keeps getting banged by a vehicle.

I try not to think about it but almost everynight i stay up cos i fear to see the same damn image again. it's damn scary ok. I can feel the splatters of blood and the deafening sound. And wake up to find myself crying. Yeah and i feel like a mad woman just typing this down.=/

Oh and people. i will not be updating my blog frequently. I'm quite busy these days so yeah. that's about it i guess..

urghhhh stab stab stab!!

2006-08-07T21:49:00.000+08:00

Seriously!

Class was alright.. circuit analysis.. was kinda easy..
Had braden to help me solder my damn resistors.. i think it wun work lah... cos i accidentally burnt the damn thing.. ahhhhh!! damn it... so irritating!!

Anyways after school meet up with aizhen.. followed her fer her interview.. after that we got gummy bears from Linda!! She says its for the cute little things .. *smiling like a rolling ball*
So yea we walked back to Woodlands.. Anddddd... aizhen remembered we had to decorate our club room!! Yeyness!! we kinda talked all about it on our way to woodlands.. heh heh and had some great ideas.. woo hooo!!

And to that moronic idiot whose sole purpose is to ruin my day forever, seriously i have no idea what u want from me. I tried being there AND I TRIED DAMN HARD EVEN WITH MY DAMN BUZY SCHEDULE! i'll try not to curse here.
So this idiot here came to me pointing out to me what areas i should have concentrated on while being a friend. And this idiot blamed me for my friend's suicide.. seriously can i just strangle and knock this person's head.

Thanks alot for bringing up the past that i have tried so hard to put it behind. yeah.seriously appreaciate it. a great big trophy fer ur "idioticity". What is worse is that there are othere who believe in this idiot. WOW. how smart are they. seriously. dun blame me for another's action. Failure is your own and u will accept it even if it stings! my bad if u can't accept it. Shes dead. what do you want me to do? dig her up and put makeup fer you? Respect her! She's gone.left. not here. nada. ziltch! what do u want? leave this situation be. its redundant now. leave me alone!

Days with Aizhen

2006-07-31T22:19:00.000+08:00

Stress Relief.

I HATE. I REPEAT! I HATE TODAY'S LESSON!
Seriously! I felt like pulling my hair and messing it up and like seriously pull and pull and pull... which was a bit dumb cos i was wearing tudung.. how was i suppose to pull it out unless i want to pull it from the sides.. abit weird then cos there will be hairsfrom he side then i'd be like a cave women wrapped in someone's armpit.. wait.. why am i talking about this.. i was suppose to talk about how bad and evil the lesson was. ahh heck.. i ended up watching my anime..

anyways.. was actually looking forward for the cyriva prize presentation. heh heh cos aizhen will be there fer me to crap with....after the prize presentation all of us ate stuff frm the cafe esplanade wah lau.. full sia..ok.. so later went home wif aizhen.. oh by the ways... SHORTIES RULE!!

had a few laughs... thanks to aizhen.. thus i'm stress relieved..

2006-07-28T21:55:00.000+08:00

I am NOT CRITICIZING!!

This is what i feel about the ongoing riots and protestors by the muslims because of the muslims of other countries. Yes I am aware of the on goings that has happened to the fellow muslims. I feel their pain too. BUt for the rest of the muslims who has good intention of helping. This is not the way... People from other religion would start being cautious of u, they will shun u, they will talk bad. The thing i want to put forward here is that our religion will be put on the line where this sentence would always pop up in their mind "This religion shows so many violence."

Seriously speaking sometimes i feel ashamed of the people who go rioting. Please don't get me wrong i am not ashamed of my religion. In fact i love it. But im just so scared people will get hurt. Some unnecessary injuries.

Why don't they help in charity or sumthing. I think they could use the power and energy they have on something better.

look at me!

2006-07-23T18:39:00.000+08:00

LOOK AT ME !!

I HAVE BEEN VERY WORRIED FOR YOU. WHY WOULDN'T U LOOK AT ME?! U WOULDN'T EVEN TALK TO ME!! but i guess i must be happy that you're ok..
look at me please...

....im so tired..

updates!!

2006-07-16T19:19:00.000+08:00

I'm Lovin It
Gosh... im having cramps now..Due to the overworked body of mine yesterday. I was at Kallang!! The NE show for the Pri 5 kids..Man... the sun was schorching!! I felt myself burn under the mighty big yellow thing!!

Myself, Jules, Pris, Fida,Andrea,Lina,Azzlyn and the other gal.. i guess hadif and Nabil were there somewhere too..we were like painting the kids.. At first some of them didn't want.. then when a kid wants all started to want it... It was fun! hahaha but i felt terrorised by them sometimes.. hahah they even pull me towards them when i was doing[ I meant painting context] another kid.

Some of them were sporting. Most were just boring people..Uhh had pizza for lunch! And KFC fer dinner.. i wish they gave me the chicken drumlets from pizza hut. I guess that would be blissful...

So we ended around 5 plus.. den we went home... AND WE BLOODY WALKED FROM THE STADIUM ,WE PASSED THE RIVER AND THEN WAS SOOOO BLOOODDDY LONG AND HOOOTTT LAH....

after that i rushed over to shu's house cos she was having her birthday party... bwahaha.. missed them.. din talked to shu much thou cos i was busy filling my stomach with food.. nyahaha.. ahh nvm.. shes my sis she bloody understands meee...den.. ohh!! I GOT CHOCOLATES FRM HER.. HAHAHA BIRTHDAY G00DIE BAGS.. WAH I TOT ONLY KIDS DO DAT LAH.. BUT HECK I TOOK IT ANYWAY!!

ohh!! and tanya's back from canada!! hahah meeting her on wednesday!! woo hoo having dinner together.. man its been half a year? a year? im nt sure.. heh heck..

i have analog UT on tuesday.. die die die... i feel depressed sometimes man.. my class.. damn smart.. so scary.. oh and tomorrow.. i have meeting again.. tired sehs..
oh was thinking of keeping art.. hahaha.. and den.. i wanna join guitar ensembly.. woo hoo.. cos i have a guitar at home which is storing dust by the minute.. so i need to start clearing those dust..

hmm oh and sweetie.. sorry i din go fer ur performance its kinda in the church and... hmm memories.. bad ones.. so uhh.. sorry.. i noe ur freaking mad... but i .. i dunn0.. i just din wanna go in there...i hope u really understand..i really do..

oh oh!! the other day!! i went to seoul garden with my class!! hahaha was damn nice lahzzzz.. i really enjoyed it.. hang on ..ill upload it.. wait ahh..

jeng jeng jeng...

i have no idea where the pics went.. so laters?
hahahaha

Retardedness!

2006-07-09T21:21:00.000+08:00

Suicide

Ok this has got to stop! First it was K to jump off now its M?! Have you people no shame to throw something god has given us more importantly what our parents have given us? OUR LIVES?????

You people take it as a joke? Have u no considerations of how you affect others whan you jumped? Or have you no feelings? has that bloody head of yours went bonkers? I tried my best to be there for you guys BUT IT WAS NEVER ENOUGH WAS IT?! For god sake there is something call a HELP LINE, FRIENDS, TEACHERS AND GOD!!

i took my time even when im sick i drag myself up to reach you guys... but why take this path? why?WHY?!! What problems can't be fix? Tell me. If you had just wait a while more things are gonna turn out well.

I won't deny i may have some thoughts of suicide. But i stuck to my faith and words shared by my loved ones. Has it never occured to you that u may be the point of motivation for someone.And to have you gone may be the last thing that person wants. I can't believe waht you had done to yourself.

I know this post has no meaning to you cos your DEAD. Seriously you shouldnt have chosen that path. I miss you. Why though? Have i not been there for you? wasnt that enough? I miss you!

* readers - read and keep it. no questions asked. no tags.

wishin..

2006-06-26T20:28:00.000+08:00

Find Purple Moo's entry interesting..

I find what slenger babi van said quite interesting.. so here's what i think...

The wish at the point of time we made was because we were lack of whatever was needed. And when it happens..we find that so.. what's next.. then a new problem arises..

i mean seriously.. lets say.. this girl wished her parents would get back together... they did.. but are not happy together.. thus making the family a total chaos... then she wishes god would just do sumthing quick.. and when god does.. she hates HIM..

the world is not perfect.. if it was there isn't a need for HIM...

people always want the quickest way out of every possible sticky situation.. but then again DO THEY THINK OF WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN?

- the people involve
- how are things gonna be from now on
- the effect it might have on others or oneself

so .. in summary.. humans are just selfish beings whos always questioning god's power and blaming him for what hapen when they have choosen that path.. THEIR OWN PATH.. stupid really..
what is ironic is dat god still loves us.. =))

ok this is my third post fer the day i think... uh the second.. lost track...
2morro ut.. better start studying... outz people..

-love nisa

circuit analysis

2006-06-26T11:39:00.000+08:00

Dead

in class. eyes droopy. brain shut down. lost. extremely irritated!

2006-06-25T14:55:00.000+08:00

Thankful For God

seriously.. im so thankful to him for blessing me wif so many great friends. I don't know what i would do without u guys...

Slenger Babi Van.. is going aussie this tuesday.. fer 2-3 weeks!! im gonna miss her... sobs... but hen again she wun shout embarassing things to guys.. tt i noe..

uhh what else.. ok class has been great just some stuff are starting to bother and irritate me to death.. and am trying so hard not to explode...

changes in facilitators such a norm... since sem one my class change faci.. so suay i always land in dat class..

what else... ok ah.. im not in a very good mood and if i am.. pls dun spoil it as it takes alot of effort to be in a good mood these days..

lady huer: thanks man.. blog hoppers are great ppl!

ooh ndp fringe its coming.. and im getting lazy.. shoots!

ok let me ask wats sooo weird abt going out with your cousins seriously.. when i told some of my frens they are like shock" HUH U GO OUT WITH YOUR COUS?"

duh they are my family.. weird mehss??? im close to them lo.. we bitch abt our schoolmates or whoever we dun like also.. wahaha.. and they do know you guys.. dun be surprise..

ok ah dats abt it i guess... loads of love- nisa

Fright

2006-06-21T14:04:00.000+08:00

Scared

Parents fought again last night. And mum was screaming and wanting a divorce. Brother was calming her down. I can't remember what else she was saing but there was a lot of divorce and hate and die and jumping off a building words came out.

I was in my room when all these happened. And she was like wanting to pack her bag and all. I came out and there she was wit her luggage out of the door. Went after her. saw a cab. she went in.

sprained my stupid ankle..its better now dun worri. I was so lost and i was so afraid. I felt like seriously killing my father...

Thanks Vanessa, my slenger babi for being there. My first instinct was to sms u.. it was quite late too.. and im sorry for that.=/

I have no idea where mum is rite now..

* decided to change my layout which i have been keeping for a week if anything like this happens..and it did.clearing my doubt.

It hurts to love and trust

2006-06-19T23:04:00.000+08:00

Ponders

Was talking to grandfather today.. he asked me if there was someone i loved or was there friends i wish to be with. I said yes duh~ with a chuckle..
he smiled..
i asked him why..
he said lately i have been hesitating to be friends with more people and afraid to show my love for them...meaning my current group of friends.. i was slightly taken aback as what he said were true...
i just sat there... there was this comfortable silence.. usually it would be uncomfortable..but i don't know.. it was just comfortable..
he then said.. love like u have never been hurt before..and cherish them like how you would with the last cup of water in the whole world...

seriously i have heard of all these before but when grandfather said it.. there was this impact i felt..he then left for his room...

right now... lets just say i have nothing to say.

2006-06-18T00:14:00.000+08:00

Guess Whooo????

was going tidying up my picture folder....
this might interest some of ya..
i dun have her latest hairstyle pic yet.. wait kies..

*ps: shes gonna kill me.. so im putting my ass on the line.. better like it.

do u miss me?

2006-05-28T20:05:00.000+08:00

Do you miss me?

i wonder when u sat there
when u saw me from that seat
with my friends coming up the stairs
did you remember the days we laughed and shared?

everytime i see you i miss u
which is weird as i see u and talk to u
but i dunno why i miss u so..
and i miss u bad...

i feel disconnected, i feel left out, i feel awkward
i tried many times to talk the way i used to
but the feeling of uneasiness still hangs around me
i lay at night thinking why, reasoning out so much
that i cried so many tears

i ask myself do they miss me?
i did not dare to answer myself.
too afraid but why? i am not myself
i never felt the way i felt now..

do you miss me?

* i noe i promised to load the pics.. but im not in the mood for it ...

2006-05-21T00:39:00.000+08:00

Guess Who's Back?

have not updated for a long time.. have been busy. which i have no idea why i made myself busy.

anywas..summary of the days since the last post..

when did l last post again? uhh ok! last week..last monday..

i nisa have joined cyriva club...SEG club..man how geeky can i get.. anyways i like it..i want it..and i wanna be in the publicity team...i think i can work with them...its kinda coool! The first task that i got when i went in this club was to make a video summarising the seg club...hmm..im dunn0 if im up for it at that moment..but den see how la...finished it..left to put the music and the final touches..den i can send it over to cindy..

members of publicity:
saiful..
yiwen
steve
vanessa
and me i guess...

next thing is...oh i love my Year 2 sem 1 class..they are great fun..went out with them for pp..had lunch with them too..people who went lunch together:

vanessa
citra
amir
myself
serene
jasmin
jeremy
braden

we went pizza hut!! woo hoo!! pictures ill upload in the next post..and whatever incident whether the good, dumb, stupid, lame or just plain posing will be up..i promise u..

uh..ok have not been to art club..heh..i dunno ar..everytime i hear the word draw/ paint ill just run away.. those words scare me.. and ppl will be asking why the heck did u join in the first place? heck. i live my life not u..so go pick ur nose!

ill be joining them thou for the glass thingy heh.. and pris's the president of art club...coolness..

school has been great with my great class yey!! i hate the bloody modules thou...i confirm 100% fail my analog paper.. freak i dun even noe wat the hell i was writing.. its a bloody miracle if i even have a 1/50... =[

oh serene from my yr 2 sem 1 class.. haha she called me SASA heh like wat sharin did..when she called me i was like shock..siallah...the only 2 person i know who will call me dat was sharin n yani..and there she was calling me across the class...

i have also been coming home late sia..the latest was 10++ and i was still in school..sighs..
ohh!! watched VOICE with saiful n yiwen.. OMG...i click wif them quite fast man..AND.. hahaha went to have dinner with saiful n tertius...my first time having dinner with tertius..and he eat so fast... my god..and i was of cos the last slow tortise..

finally!! i miss my best friends!! guys when do we meet up?? i know we're in totally different schools and all...and im the buzy one..im so sorry for that... lets get that jacket!! ok? yey!
i miss jules and all too..funny eh...same school but rarely meet up..miss u guys..

pictures up next post!! heh *wonders when will i post the next entry? *luff to oneself..

tired.

2006-05-08T20:20:00.000+08:00

AM SO TIRED

i am tired. get the picture? yes u ppl do! good!

anyways. today was fun. the class made me laugh man.. just what i needed these few days. laughters...tomorrow's PCB. lab!! yey! i love this lesson!! but i dun realli like the fac. heh.
Tomorro is soo gonna be fun.. i have suria, braden, ida and hui sing.
woo hoo!! the fun people! no actually we're the most fun group ah!! tuesday.. i don't know if there is an art meeting.. i dun feel like going. i need my rest man. i havent been having a good night's rest. i wonder why my eye bags dun show. must be the drink that i'm taking. My dad lah.. so many things wan..but the water is sooo icky.

mummy bought these pills for my face. so many zits ahh!! soo...im taking it... and i think it works. dunno..must give it 2 weeks... but i think its working ah.. cos i dun see any new ones coming out. bwahaha...

what else ah? oh yea.. shiyun and u was bored during class.. so we pakat meet at toilet to chat. [ we're in different class now.] ohh!! and you know that frm my class to the ladies ahve to passs the mens.. so.. as i was walking.. then rite.. the door open wide wide ahh.. den i think I THINK i saw EE SHAUN pee? wahaha and a few other guys.. GROSS!! EWW EWW EWW...the toilet structure shuld be facing the other side man...but seriously.. i saw guys standing like in a line up..hahahah so funny but the same time gross.

eh i think my entry's getting interesting. good nites people. i wanna get my sleep.. SHOOTS!! DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES AND GREY'S ANATOMY IS ON LATER..DANG.. NVM ASK MY PHONE TO WAKE ME UP.. ehh alamak in caps.. nvm.. dun care.. dun wanna delete. tired.

The day i snapped

2006-05-06T22:19:00.001+08:00

The Day I Snapped.

Funny isn't it when people around me are trying to cheer me up and there i was snapping at their heads. Then I was being a bloody bitch to them plus being mean and say dreadful things. Things that tears a person's heart into pieces just listening to them. Things that made them cry and made them doubt.

I realised I have been a bloody sad bitch who throws her tempers at her friends who are dear to her. Yes I did. My mistake: I let it be. I let it bottle up. I let those dreadful words out of my mouth. I didn't care. I became what i was afraid of. I let my words hurt others. I let my feelings became the better of me. I let my darkside the better of me. I let my temper blind the reality. I said whatever made me feel better. It was I.

But then I realised that when I hurt them. The hurt came to me much more than to them. The people who crapped, who TRIED WITHOUT FAIL to cheer me up and pick me up. Those are the people i have hurt. Those are the people who support me. Those are the people who cares for me. AND YES. I WAS BEING A BLOODY BITCH TO THEM. YES ME. FUNNY RIGHT?! You people out there might be thinking how bloody stupid, moronic, insensitive, dumb, idiotic and _______(feel free to fill in the blank) I am. Yes I agree with you.

And my sad lame excuses were: Stress up in class. How bloody blood boiling is that answer?! Seriously when i think of it. Stupid right? Its not as if my classmates are eating me up. Its not like they are trying to kill me. (the work that was given are killing me. that without a doubt but heck. everybody is facing that problem so it cancels out.)

I have no idea what i have become. So i hope you guys understand. I don't feel like sharing my problems. And that i know is posing a problem in our friendship. All I ask is for some time to adjust.

Sharin: I love you dear. I really do. I am sorry for snapping at you.
Van: I had threw my tempers at you. I know and I am sorry.
Pris: I have said so many hurtful things at you. I have had hurled at you one after the other. I am sorry.
Yani: I think i showed some attitude. I'm sorry too.
Jules: My attitude sucks. I know. I'm sorry too.
Daniel: I have treated u like i also don't know what. I am sorry too.

Updating in progress..

2006-04-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

Pictures!! Woo hooo!!

This is me and van at the cafe today after school while waiting fer the rain to stop.. Was with pris, riri, irfan, daniel, azri and aisyah...had a lot of fun man with them.. a great way to chill!! seriously!Went home abt 645pm? 7 sumwhere there.. i think abt 720? dunn0..

Ahh this pic should come after the next.. heh but anyways.. they sky was so nice.. i wished i had a camera then. Riri phone was the best among us...so she can only get this far to catch the nice colours formed in the sky..i love it when the colors blend in the sky!! this pic!!! when we were walking to the interchange!! seriously it ws damn nice!! there was a rainbow man!! it's been a long time since i saw a rainbow form!! seriously!1 it was damn nice!! and i walked bloody slow lah... i was enjoying the view..again credits to riri phone.
Anyways.. met my slenger babi van and the gang.. wah laus..like finally lah i can break wif them! seriously..i miss dem so bad...its a pity actually...but they din miss me lah..so sad man..sobbs..
my happiness was short lived..van as USUAL...BULLIED ME..wah laus... happy ahh she..

to jules: hugs babe..u can always try again..im right behind ya=)

2006-04-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

Exhausted

It's finally wednesday!! A day for me to rest! Seriously, school has been tough for me. I have no idea what was going on today and din bother to ask.. Van and i was just slacking side by side eating sweets and staring at the screen... den all the geniuses in class start their explaining.. aiya..i think van has now become my partner in class man.. my next kelly..

Hmm..this guy jeremy in my class i think he goes fer chiminology which i have a serious problem telling him that we dun need that piece of junk extra information..wah laus..make me n van confuse like mad ahh just nw..seriously..i cannot take it sei... waste my time lei..den he think so smart..atlast i have to save him...so irritating sia..

and my mum is now blabbering again..im going nuts.

Crying myself a river

2006-04-23T22:04:00.000+08:00

Cry myself a river..

im sooo freaking bored can??
i stayed at home cos im kinda grounded..
shit ahhh..so boring can...
hmm bout my previous post..
i think im over-reacting..ahhah i dunn0 lah..
dun wanna think abt it...
lets just go with the flow and see how
it ends..if it ends that is..

anyways...i was forced to cook!!
can u believe it!!!
and my mom made me peel 20 onions
cut 30 chilli...wah laus.. i tell u..by the 7th onion..
i was crying like mad lahhh...
den after everything..my eyes were like swollen..
and puffy...wah was crying like siao ok..

den half way through i also cry lah voluntarily..
ahaha voluntarily...i also dunno why i cry man...
anyways..i was multi tasking around the kitchen ahh..
this was what i was doing...btw
i wiped my tears ok..ws very clean..=)

i was frying fish while cutting the stupid onions and chilli...
and explaining geography to my brother..
den flip the fish and continue cutting the squids and onions and chilli..
den blend the chilli n onions while making the gravy for the squids
made my father tea while stiring the squid gravy..and explaining maths to my fren on the phone..

see how i multi task!!! after dat got scolded by mum..
cos my order of putting whatevr stuff was wrong..
she say must follow in order..
wth..cook still cook ma..
think so much for wat..
its not that im getting married any time sooner sia
and then....wah laos..i went to being bored again...

ehh no!! i cleaned the kitchen ok..
was super nice..
den mom scolded me cos she cannot find the things she need
wah laus...i put where it shuld be mah..
dry stuff wif dry stuff..
she scold me like nobody's business man...=[
anyways..im trying not to remember how to cook this dish..
so she cant bulli me to cook any dish..
shit ahh its seems these days im cooking fer my family..
it sucks.=[

Arrogant? i dunn0..

2006-04-21T19:43:00.000+08:00

this is what i feel..

i have this good friend..
she has been great..
she was there for me when i needed to talk.

however i find her a little bit arrogant these few days..weeks?
maybe its just me
maybe im the one whos expecting more from her?
maybe im being jealous?

i don't know...
sighs..

anyways... class was great today..!!
i enjoyed today's lesson..it was smooth sailing heh..
and i was able to answer the fac's questions!!
shes really great at facilitating lah..!!
i love her!!
but her questions make you think..so dats good..

my stupid fever recovering..yey!!

and to those whom i did not reply on msn these few days..
im sorry...cos im too lazy..and not in very good mood these days..

Sucky DAy

2006-04-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

Mocking the Depths of The Electronic Sea

I have no idea why i am in Biomedical Electronics
Seriously..
My courses for this semester is seriously physics based
i cannot take it man..first day i was struggling in this deep electronic sea already
second day was not so bad cos there were maths. logical..
third day i was gasping for air already..
tomorrow i'd sure be dead.

i feel so stupid with my smart ass classmates. i cannot slack
i miss slacking..
if i slack there goes my grade..
shit la..
what is worst is that i cant understand the modules..
im like a sitting duck there..
the class is so fast in catching up..
come on lah im like so stupid there..and i need at least 3 different people
to explain to me one single point..
my god how stupid and humilating and degrading can dat be..

school sucks..im not looking forward to next week..
words of encouragements are falling to deaf ears..

so long my slacking nisa..

im exausted

2006-04-18T20:29:00.000+08:00

Exausted

I'm so exausted of everything
why am i trying to make myself
look happy when i know when im not?

its so retarded. i feel retarded.wait.
i am retarded to be feeling like this.
its just so tiring to hate, to feel that bloody weight
pulling me down.

its draining me more than ever.
the problems at home..its just so..
sighs i don't know.. i wish i could just make
hide and be oblivious of everything..

to be like a young kid. with the innocence of not knowing anything
not to judge or be judged by others.
where my centre of the universe are just candies chocolates and gifts

i feel weak by the day
but i cant break down..when i so much want to
cos i have others to care about.

~confused and tired; edge of breaking down~

pea brained!

2006-04-16T20:25:00.000+08:00

Seriously!

what is your problem? why can't u just think
with your god-given brain?!

i never knew anyone who has a head as big as any normal person
with a bloody small fucking pea-sized mass for brain.
That head must be full of cobwebs since it last think
of something so simple!!!!
for goodness sake!! is your head on your body for decoration?

Seriously just bugger off...
do something with yor inability to think..
read some simple i-q books or sumthing!!

~pissed~

nothing to do..soo

2006-04-15T13:56:00.000+08:00

bored so im doing this..[edited]

ok..daniel im updating ok..

yesterday was a blast! met up with my darlings..
heh
shikin was a straight down minah malaysia!!
gawd..couldnt stand her!!
she kept talking in this weird disgusting malay..
seriously stop it sei...and
as usual she bullied me!!

oh and this 30th gonna try to make it to shu's
sister's baby..aiya shu's niece..
heh..cute sei the baby.. like shu..

so vanessa soh asked me to write abt her...

t's wringing in my head says:
BLOG ABT MEEEEE!
it's wringing in my head says:
((:
Nisa~ Class E25N..anybody?? says:
wat abt u
it's wringing in my head says:
that i'm pretty, sexy and IRRESISTABLE!
it's wringing in my head says:
(;
Nisa~ Class E25N..anybody?? says:
rite..
Nisa~ Class E25N..anybody?? says:
ur preety
Nisa~ Class E25N..anybody?? says:
nt so sexy
Nisa~ Class E25N..anybody?? says:
definately un-irresistable
it's wringing in my head says:
hahaaaa.. idiot!

yea so shes pretty..not dat sexy..
definately un-irresistable...
hahahaha
joking babe!!!
shes so gonna kill me..but its ok..
she loves me..hahaha

edited yea..
okays...ive been listening to juliana theory songs...
nt bad lei they all..
ahahaha...what else uh..
im gonna watch "take the lead" wif jules and vanny...
anybody wanna join us??

lemme noe yea...uh to azril..
sorry yea..i tot u dun wanna go sei..
anyways..call me or wat uh..

..mum was angry today
she just vented her anger on me..
the wierd thing is i dun feel anything when she said
all those things..which is suppose to hurt me
i was just looking at her...
and i dunno wat to feel..

dat was wat happen when i quarreled with some
friends the other day..
i felt nothing..
i was feeling happy..or whatevr mood i was in that day..

now im just wondering..and btw my mum is still
going on and on ..right this moment..
and im sitting here like nothing's happened
and im blogging abt it with no feeling..
can someone like tell me what's wrong??

and these few days i dun really like get all fired up
if someone just pissed me off..like so wierd..
anyways..im gonna play some game..

i still dunnoe wat im suppose to feel..right now..

the porche lady

2006-04-10T06:36:00.000+08:00

The porche lady...

Its been 2 days since i last updated
have been busy being tired..

anyways, i was working
i think on the 6th april..

there was this lady who came in
and walked over my aisle...
den came to me and said..
" hi , do you carry a brand name
porche?"
den i was like thinking isnt that a car's brand?
so i said "no i dun think we carry that brand mam.."
she said" no..i always shop here i know paragon.."
so i called my friend the metro staff..
she tpld her we did not carry that brand..
so that lady asked me another question..
"ok since u dun have dat brand..do u have anything
that has all leather? and anti-slip wear? because this sandles im wearing [ she bends and pick it up. i realised it was gucci at first.] is quite pricely... so i want a pair of shoe that is all leather. This sandles im wearing now is quite pricely..i paid $30 ++ for it."

wah!! i thought i heard wrongly..den i said u bought that for $300 ++?
she said" no no..only $30++ and its real leather"
i was like yea rite..so now i know that is fake..
and she says she knows paragon..tsk tsk

so my fren the metro staff[ shi ya] and i was like listening to all this.
we were fighting with our inner will to fight back the laughter
then i told her if she wants all leather it might be a little pricey
and den she tells us .."yea i know..about $30 right?"
shi ya then said no maam its about $90 and above
den she was in shock... cos she says that she ought many leather
shoes but none was as high as that..
so..now both of us know that
all her leather shoes were infact not leather shoes.

she den walk around and bought this pair of sandles from
elle or u.r.s im not sure..which costs $50.90..
which has mix leather & pvc..
anyways im happy for her cos there is a lil real leather in there..

after she left both of us were laughing like mad..
wierd customers man..shes not the only one..
by far she won the hillariously stupid award..

the end of the porche lady..

back to me..im kinda irritated with this unknown tagger whos using my name and van's to diss us off each other. seriously..i mean if that person would like to say something tell it to our face..or at least put in his/her real name..juvenile!!!

what else uh?? oh..im no longer working!! ahahaha i wanna go out!!! jio me out lahz!!
anyways to Mr. Alex...i want more of your pasta cos its super uber nice.. hees make more fer me pleaaaaaaaaaaasssseeeee =p

im still waiting.

2006-04-07T14:16:00.000+08:00

i'm still waiting

im still waiting for the apm pictures which my
cousin still have not given me..grr..
anyways..this sun is my last day of work..
anybody wanna jio me out?
i wanna go shopping!! got money lioaz finally!!
wahaha...

and im still sick..
and i have this funni customer..ill tell ya
if u ask me..
ask me abt the PORCHE LADY..

I'm An Insomiac

2006-04-05T12:30:00.000+08:00

Insomnia..

I slept at 930 yesterday..
was ordered to by res darling and van huns(soh)
god..dat was like the earliest i slept
anyways..i ate a total of 4 paracetamol
only to learn that it has expired.
-__________-" stupid huh.

anyway woke up at 1.52am den i cant get back to sleep
and i started to think of stuffs
i guess i should be contented with life
haha..heck.
and i seriously think i have insomnia
dat makes me an insomniac..
i like using dat word..
gives a ring to it.

oh to my darlings animal farm..im sorry!!!
i noe we've been wanting to meet and it keeps
getting push back due to my uhh packed schedule?
next week im like free except 12 april..=)

im sick on and off lahh
so irritating...

ohh!!! i wanna watch ice age 2!!
and does anybody have ghost vcd or dvd?
im soo bored...

sick n tired

2006-04-02T23:51:00.000+08:00

tired and sick

just got back from werk.
and im so tired.
and hungry
and angry
and seriously confused.

im sick too fer that matter
and now i wonder..
ppl always say..u make me worried
issit cos they love me n care fer me
or just " hey dun add to my burden yah"
i think the latter...

goodnites and sweet dreams..

i miss you

2006-04-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

I miss you..

i am tired now..
just got back from work..
did stock taking..alone.

i miss you
alot..i miss laughing
and crapping
and bitching..
i miss you..alot.

parent meeting

2006-03-31T22:38:00.001+08:00

Brother's parent meeting

oh my god..when i went to the class..
there is this tall guy there..hes sec 1!!
can u like believe it?
he is sooo mat..
and the chinese there..wah freak..so
urghh..blueaks...
only a handful were presentable...
gosh...so scary lah my brother's class..

anyways..my brother practically failed everything
and there is this lady..who asked who was my son
seriously...am i dat old? do i look dat type?
wah..i replied i was his sister lah..
den she said" ohhh.i tot dat was ur son and that ur so young..
so i tot he was ur husband" can u believe it..alex?
my hubby? wth is she thinking...

anyways..got screamed from my mum cos
my brother failed..crap..he fails..i get the scholding
thanks alot. i really appreacite that.
hmm wat else happen today?

apart from being angry most of the day
and shooting sarcasm to the whole class
busy body aunties...and to the teacher..
throwing temper at objects and refraining myself to
the computer to chat for fear of hurting others

i read a book..nice book..good book.
titled" working wonders"

Love quiz??

2006-03-31T13:54:00.000+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		10
Words of Affirmation:		7
Quality Time:		6
Receiving Gifts:		6
Acts of Service:		1

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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bubu Cha cha

2006-03-31T13:36:00.000+08:00

buu buu cha cha

i've got some apm music!!!
gueess from whooo??
jules!! hahaha and feez and kin..

anyways,..can u believe it.
i ate fudge ice cream from macdonalds
like 10 minutes to 12 am...
hahaha..cool rites..
i din go there alone..
a fren followed so..
yea..

and i like buu buu cha cha...
its not a porridege..
its this phrase i fell in love with
a cartoon..soo cuute..

Sorry Huns..

2006-03-30T13:43:00.000+08:00

Sorry Huns..

Barney van,

i'm really sorry about throwing my temper
at you..and i realised i have been doing it
quite frequently...
and i also realised how lame my reasons
could be to be angry at you for other
people's mistakes..
biasly judging u from other people's reaction
to certain situations.
i guess you were there when no one was
and i have no idea why im constantly angry at you
even though it is not your fault..

and i also have not been sensitive to some of the

concerns of some situations when talking to ya.

im thinking rite now..why so.

and i have hurt you without realising it
and am so sorry..
i hope you forgive me..

im sorry babe..

third entry

2006-03-30T00:04:00.000+08:00

Absurd!!!

seriously, this is my thrid entry for the day..
the oder 2 was just blahhh..
and this...

i am expecting too much from u??!

hello..i never did try to expect anything from my friends
cos i cannot take to be dissapointed if they dun do things..
so i just leave them be..
i never expect anything from them
all i want is their company...
i dun expect them to call me, talk to me..
or watever..
cos they never do!! never had the
initiative to do so!!! im always the one giving!!!

Deep Within

2006-03-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

Deep within

as i lay on my pillow
late at night
waiting for the dust of the
night fairy to settle

i cried a thousand tears
each of hate and sadness
confusion and anger
i walled from my beloved's view

i wonder at times who i was
and why was i like now
who was i then and who
will i be next

i braved the sad faces
i see..to bring light to them
but now i wonder who brings
the light to me?nobody?

i felt useless
like a broken toy
longed forgotton accompanied by the
thick dust somewhere hidden

i wonder why the simplicity of life
has been made to dissapear
and out comes the bad wolf full
of deciet and caused pain

i guess that is what everybody
wants to find out but
scared to do so..
leaving them with more hatred everytime..

deep within me
i cry to thee
to take me with
and cherish me...

my thoughts everytime before sleeping..

Ehh ehh

2006-03-29T20:44:00.001+08:00

Single..roger and out.

i think being single rocks
u dun have to think of alot of things
and u dun feel very irritated.
haha..

anyways..met up wif jules..
met shikin..ju's bestie..
hmm shes short lah..
i tot she tall sia..
hmm so zaagg is tall and kin short..

borrowed 2 books from library..
cos im super uber bored..
anyways..

gonna meet up wif my lovable darlings tomorrow..
riri's back!! hahaha..i miss her so..
and people..

pls stop calling me nisa baba...
so un-glam...

and i feel "un-loved" by vanny soh...
she keep bullying me u noe..
and said it was her natural instinct...
sad man..this kinda fren..
huns pls be discreet..ok...
abt u noe wat..and u noe who..

oh!! and i have this pic of her looking consptipated!!
hahaha who wants me to upload it??
*evil luff*

Nightmare Lady

2006-03-28T20:02:00.000+08:00

Nightmare Lady In Metro Paragon!!

this is about this customer who wants to buy shoe
ladies work shoe..
she wants it to be wearable in the office and
she doesnt want heels...

so firstly i was with this anoder customer
and the metro staff ar..my fren go and
tend to her...
wah she damn fussy lor...
she was at metro abt 1 pm..
den see shoes arx..
see until alot of pairs arx..
den she goes fer lunch wif her family
so we had to put back the shoes she tried on..

she came back..we took it out..
she went fer dinner..
we kept it back..
den she bloody comes again..

den now..i had to tend to her..so
my fren n i were like sian
feel like killing her..
she damn fussy ok...
in all she tried on at least 14 pairs of shoes..
wat was worse was that after trying this brand ecco
she din want..den she went over to timberland..
den i say wat type she want..
den bla bla bla..she say i choose very good
she like my taste.
walau ehz..den scold me y i din tend to her earlier..
walau ehz..had to smile..she is so lucky she din get
up down stare frm me sia..

she was our last customer.. she went off at 935pm...
tsk tsk... and i was there till then!!
i was suppose to go home at 9 ok?!
haish..

the next day she came...
wah jialat..she asked the timber land gal lah tu reserve
for her the bllody shoe..
den walaus..timberland gal..my anoder fren faezah..
go to n fro frm taka to get the bloody shoe..
she came back sorri hor..this shoe nt so new i dun want..
wtf?! like hello if ur gonna use it sure gt a lil line..it wasnt even
a bloody scratch..was just a line..cos u tend to bend ur feet when u walk ma
dumb bitch..

aniways..she made me stay again till 940pm..
stupid ass..
was praying she wun come..again
ever again..
the irritating part is dat i have to be nice to her
and have to smile
and to have put up wif her numerous explanation
and her dunnoe wat..
oh and shes frm the ntuc insurance..
wah ask me go buy frm her..
den explain gt wat plans...
walau ehz...
tsk tsk..pity me man

grrr...

2006-03-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry ok?!

just got back from work..
am so tired and i have not eaten anything since morning..
which logically follows that i haven eaten anyting for the whole day.
and am so hungry.

went home..saw my brother's black face..
again..i smiled..he just give me a blank look
as if im transperant..
i was like angry but i just calmed myself down
and went to have a bath

mum did not cook as everybody went out
so there is like nothing fer me to scavanger..
except!!
there was this last piece of pizza from yest
i knew it was for mom..asked her she said ok..
was about to heat it up.
den he said..dats mum's
put it back..
i replied i was hungry
and he sarcastically said "that's mom's..i bought it for her"

ok that blew my top!
i was like wtf?!
its like its just like dat lah
and he made it a bloody big fucking deal..
i mean hello..its not like i purposely erase it from my mind
dats y its called "forgotten"
hes being a fucking asshole!!

fine i shall not touch any food tonite neither am tomorrow..
i dun care...i would not touch whatever he bought!!
(he went wif mum in the morning for groceries; so he thinks its his..)
so dumb actually!!
so im just gonna cook myself..

like seriously..i dunno how many times i have apologised..
he shuld have reminded me like on tues or mon..
this one he told me on friday..thanks arx..
how to change??! tell me..
it was partly my fault lahz...
but dun be stupid and drag it...

ehhh shit.. am so fucking hungry..
and my stupid bloody fever is not
giving me any mercy..
i was literally like a zombie at work..
but i did sold 4 pairs of shoes!!

walau ehz..i just missed only one thing in his bloody life ok!!
not like my dad..
he dissapoint me more than my brother and now
my bloody brother is comparing me to him?!
wat the hell?!
seriously was it dat bad?
am i dat bad to forget?

i shall not try to speak to him
i have enough of shits..
one after another

i'd seriously liked him to shout scold..i dun care..
just say something to like scream at me
i hate silent treatment..
its worse..its like a volcano abt to erupt..
im like dat..
im the volcano..
and i noe how much hatred can be bottled up
i dun want him to be like dat..
but den it just proves how alike we are..

oh and i have found a new way to sleep..
just cry....jules gave me dat idea..
and i realised i have lots of things to cry about
i think all my bottling up does some good
in the end...
heck..i wanna just cry..
and i also realise..
dat this blog is
my bestest friend..a buddy and a companion..
its always there..for me..

2006-03-25T08:59:00.000+08:00

Pissed with myself.

how bloody forgetful can i get?
like seriously...
last 2 weeks my brother asked if i could go to his
NCC marching watsoever at Kallang..
and i said yes.
and i assured him hes not gonna mess up anything
and its normal to do so..

and now..i gotta werk today!!
fuck me sideways man..
and he was angry yesterday..
and told me not to make empty promises..

he also said my dad and i are the same..
making empty promises
it was so heartbreaking to hear him say that

today he din even speak to me..
he just show his stupid dumb face..
i can't back out now rite..
i'm werking and its too late fer them to find
someone to cover me..

will update about apm when mood changes.

-nisa ur the most bloody stupid sister anyone could ever have. and u are a huge pile of crap. Ur just like dad..even though u never wished to.. it runs in our bloody veins. just when someone depends on ya ur not there.. U THINK THE BIASLY UNJUSTIFIED WORLD IS REVOLVING AROUND YOU..WELL NOW U NOE ITS NOT!

Pictures baby!

2006-03-24T14:36:00.000+08:00

Pictures Baby!!

heh heh this is at food republic..there was ice in YANI'S mouth...but heck it looks as if she took out her fake teeth... hahahaha..needs cleaning!!
this is me and van..we were sitting opposite each oder...and hse has trouble sitting cos her bloody legs were long...so we took a pic to show how short the table was..she had to double bend..and i sat upstraight..hahaha so funni!! im short..food republic table are the best..fer me that is..wahahaha..but their food bloody expensive man!!
to further prove how short am i to van..here is the proof..im shorter than jules by abt 1 cm..den u do the maths ok...van is abt 1 head taller than me...hahah im realli a miss smurf...
i love this picture alot..its soo nice..hahah..love them..hees... they realli made my day..nyahaha..

another sleepless nite

2006-03-24T02:10:00.000+08:00

sleepless nite..

ok people..im getting cranky by the minute..
like seriously..i haven slept for 5 days..
and today..im going fer the apm..
die la..
i have no energy already...

but im bored see..
and i just finished editing our blog and al's blog..
hope she likes it..
cos its suppose to be a surprise..
her birthday..heees..

ok..things i must remember..
bring batteries..camera and uh..myself..
hahaha
maybe ill put on some make up man..
eye bags showing already..
damn..
aniways...i wanna go watch dvd now..
luv u ppl..outz.

Friends

2006-03-23T18:53:00.000+08:00

Just feel like it

dear friend

I have lived in my darkest existence
not knowing what was light
u came and pulled me through
a vortex of beauty
I never knew

you shower me with laughters
and your joys
all your smiles and comforting words
are the sun to my dark icy sky

when I was lost you held
out your hand..
for then i realize that it was
your heart that I was holding on

when everything's dirt
and I when I feel wasted
you came like an angel
with just a smile
you worked magic

you are ever so patient listening
to my whines and troubled fears
your ever warm and comforting hugs
lighten my ever so heavy burdens

until the day when
we're old and grey
I'll cherish you for
your friendship means more
to me than that of any wealth combined

just feel like writing a little something. this week have been a rough one. so i just feel like writing this down. can't explain myself much. wait i never knew how to. its just so wierd. hahaha..
hmm i think i'll lay down fer a while...not feeling to well these days.

Was just wondering..

2006-03-21T21:07:00.000+08:00

was just wondering

just got back from town
went out wif jules van pris riri yani and haryati
finally..hahah got to meet haryati..mann
i tot shes about our height lah...
den saw her..shes about van's height..damn
hahah.

enjoyed the day. very much.
love them to bits and pieces.

was just wondering..
im enjoying my time with my poly friends.
alot i must say.
but my best friends..
i wonder where they are
never heard from them.
if they r online...
i always have to make the first move
to say hi
i feel invisible...
i think they dun even bother.
sometimes i wonder if i am thinking too much?
but seriously..
haha all those promises of keeping touch
seems so broken. wait they are broken.
why?
cos all of us are busy. with school.work.stuffs.
hell i dunno wat else.
went out yes...dats abt it.
den i'd hear nothing from them..
its as if we are all long distanced.
the blog is useless.
realli.
i now totally dunnoe wats going on
wif kin and al..
not very sure bout res and shu.
the people i do noe are feez n amirah.
pathetic. i noe.
sad really. wasted.

So what did i do wrong now?

2006-03-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

What did i do wrong?

every single time u see me
u'd always say
i do this wrong...dat wrong
what is wrong
u'd never tell!
that is soo frustrating.

and here i am..
blogging about it..
how retarded.

and im soo bored to death
cos everyone is busy doing other things
aiyai!! stupid idiocracy baloney!!

Hees..

2006-03-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

New picture..

Woo hoo...i did the picture..
am happy and pleased with myself...
i love it...i dun care if u ppl dun..
the doodle was done by jules dear..

the pictures are neoprints..
the above ones are jules,me riri and dan
next to it..me van jules and pris..
the bottom ones are my darling animal farmers..
Happy happy happy...

shoots!! i forgot van!! and pris!! shit shit shit!!
wait i go edit arr...
am editing!! wait wait..
so sorry darlings..
i tot u were there...
hahaha stupidity..

werk..

2006-03-19T23:09:00.000+08:00

werk...

just got back...
so tired..
legs are sore...
feet ..dead.

got a new fren!!
her name's vanessa..
hee shes so fun!!
we crapped alot ok..
had lunch together..
and omg..
shes the first chinese
that i see eating chilli padi like
nothing...power sia.

den like dat..
boring sia today..
and i was luck van din meet me..
and to dat idiot who was suppose to meet me...
ur dead..

Urghhh.. happee?

2006-03-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

People who made my day!!

saturday... a day we should be at res's house..
to watch movie..
in the end,..as usual..it got cancelled..
im not realli angri cos of dat..

its just that sometimes i feel and am convinced
that i waste money on sms-es..
people who dun reply.
like seriously.. it pisses me off .
and i wuld be like a stupid shit waiting for
a fucking reply.

i mean there is the thing called the fucking phone..
and im not like asking u to tok to me like fer long hours..
just a fucking answer would just make my day..
like wat?? it wuld be over under a minute.
fuck it if its late..i sleep late.
i appreacite it if ppl tell me.
at least i will know and wuld not leave me there
like a stupid shit...

anyhows...i went out with qiao yuan
and chew wei in the afternoon!!
had soo much fun!!
i've never luff my guts out and feel
so happy for loike a long long time sia..
i mean the oder day with jules was
enjoyable hahah..but she's a poly fren..
i meant sec sch fren...

ate at lunch at anchorpoint!!! so long havent been there!!
den saw lawrence(facilitator) can u believe it??
with his soo not good looking galfren..
hahahah...he was shocked!
dat was cute..hees..
den we went queensway
get the qiao yuan's camp stuff
-shampoo
-shoe bag
-shoe
-shorts..
uhh den we end up shopping..hahah
qiao yuan got a skirt..
i got a bag...
chew wei gt a realli nice top and a skirt
and her belt!! was realli nice

den i met my sis...
we went to watch dorm..
went to pizza hut where she werked return the uniform...
walau ehs..
so many mats
so disgusting lahz
ewww...haha
she blanja me..the whole thing food and movie!!
den i blanja her back..heh oni a milkshake...
she was happy aniways..so its cool!!
man we crapped..and luffed!!
was so fun going out with her..
den we bitch abt people..hees..
like wats new..=)

IN FACT...IM HAPPY THAT I WENT OUT
WITH THEM!!
woo hoo...instead of feeling shitty and angry
i felt yeyness and happy..
i love u gys man...

Pictures!!

2006-03-17T23:26:00.000+08:00

more pictures!!! woo hoo!!

jules and me at the back of dennis car...nyahahaha...

van eating mc donalds cos shes super uber hungry at PS..
this again is my dear jules in our art camp.... fuyooo!!

and to my hot hot sexy vanessa..dun worri..ill make ur pictures work!!! luv ya huns!!!

-.-"

2006-03-17T20:54:00.001+08:00

i dun want history to repeat.

firstly to amirah...
darling we are a group..
its not as if we hear from u every day
when ur at sydney..
so ppl tend to ask around...
and for that matters its oni me or res or feez or wan
tt has contact with u...
the rest rarely does..
and they deserve to know that u may not come back.
and anyway i havent tell them lor...
which i might 2morro!
urghhhh...

how do u expect me to shut up like dat?
i did dat once with tanya and
im not gonna repeat that!
im trying not to hate her
fer doing that ok...

hais...i do hope u understand..=[.. sobs..

What the hell?

2006-03-17T17:05:00.000+08:00

Not scary...

ehhhh...i dun understand the storyy!!!
i am currently watching
ghost of mae nak..return of nang nak..
its supposed to be scary!!but its not!!!

sooo dumb!! i was luffing at the story...
firstly the ghost is soo dumb!!
go chase the person fer wat..
u want that thing take lah
u go stalk them..
like how dumb??

den wah lau the make up..
luffing matter..i wasn't scary..ahahaha
ok..lucky i din watch it in the movies..
if not it wuld be a waste of money sia...

now i wanna watch dorm...who wanna go wiff me??

Picture fun..

2006-03-17T15:07:00.000+08:00

Picture fun...

all of us know that
when someone is bored
and has nothing better to do
or has completed what they wanna do
and have spare time...
will resort to crappy stuff to do..
i did just that...
it was fun...hahaha

ok people i did this under 20 minutes.
all thanks to photoshop!!

jules van and myself at mc cafe...just outside shaw

vanny and riri...same place..( im too lazy to open a newer folder so just grab watever i could)

this is jules screaming at me..i forget wat i did..and i think dan took this pic..or was it riri? no idea..hahahah.(hope u guys can see what i type in the pic..=))

ok i hope u guys enjoy...i dunnoe whether u guys can take the pic or not..but if can good...

if cant..ask me babes... chao..

Terrible day..

2006-03-15T21:54:00.000+08:00

Bad Day

im using green..i find dis green nice..hees

firstly i feel really really bad for cancelling
our outing daniel...
sorry yea..cos i din feel like working anymore..
im just so tired and i dunno..
maybe when sem 2 start and when i noe my schedules
is better fer me..den i noe when im free..

so with the shitty feeling i woke up ..
i realised my cousin was at my sister room..
cos she came to tutor her..
with my morning swings i just ignored her and took my clothes..
took a bath..
den uh..sat in front of the tv..
den on my lappy chatted wif van n jules and pris
and shiyun..and wan and ian and i dunno.

arghh..cleaned the house..
den mum came home..wat surprise -.-"
scolded me with the excuse of the house being messy..
how dumb is dat? i cleaned it lor
it was like sparkling clean..i even mopped the floor!!

aiya..dun care lioaz la..
she keep scolding me..if i say back
she scold me fer being rude..
and when i shut up..she scold me y i keep quiet
wah den she want me to do wat?
mime?

im really looking forward to this saturday
den ill meet my darlings
we're gonna be at a movie marathon at res's house
woo hoo..
so
dun u people dare cancel it!!
i dun care..we go!!

hmms..i keep feeling tired like siao
crazy sia... i dun even noe why!!
hahaha am i stress? but stress fer wat?
-.-" dumb rite..
arghhh!!!

now im sitting in the living room and
my sis is watching "teman anugerah"
stupid show!!! so melodramatic can??!!!
so malay!! eeee disgusting!! pui pui pui!!

walau ehz act cute lei!! wth?!!
cannot stand it sia!!!!
eeeeeeeeee..and im now disgusted..
so disgusting!!!
pui!pui!pui!

oh i can't bloody caps lock anything cos
this stupid blog will still make it in small
letters...

Stuupid moviee

2006-03-12T03:32:00.000+08:00

Date Movie? Stupid Shit!

hmm went PS yesterday...
res wanted to buy some stuff..
den...we had lunch at KFC..

uh den shu and i wanted to buy slippers ar..
but cant decide..so we buy sum days okies?
i wanna get tt red or black one..

ok shoppin fer al's birthday
den feez shoppin fer her sis's

im so broke!!

oh we watched Date Movie
at lot 1 cos cant get the tix at PS..
and res went home earlier..
so we teman her den watch arx..
we were late..
oni 5 mins.

walau ehz..the story no plot one lor...
so merepek..
and then oni a few luffable scenes..
and they weren't hard luffs
just some "heh ok.."
waste my money lahz!!
it was like $9.50!!!
plus there was no Air-conditioning!!!
it broke down!!

i will thus rate the movie..... 1/1000 out of 5 stars!!

Stupid slenger show!! so sickening..

3 of us were fuming mad lah after the show...so spastic..bdh sei!!

sighs...i miss jules van riri pris yani and dan...sian ar..
shuld we go out some time?

*pris i noe ur upset wif me...
im sorry...sighs..

* baby i not angry with u..
im just upset abt ur frens.
they are so insincere...
they make me feel like shit
around u guys..or fer that matter
i kinda stereotyped all of uh...
how do i say this..
ur religion? ur kind? i dunno..=(

Shopping!!!!

2006-03-10T20:22:00.000+08:00

Shopping!!!...at west mall -___________-"

i was like irritated in the morning...
hahah den i went paragon...
go teman my couzin..
im starting on sunday..metro..
under shoe sales..
sianz...
oh and im only working on sunday..

now..i have to find a weekday job..

wanna noe y im more desprate..
i went shopping wif mum..
den...i bought blouse..pants..
shoes...hahahah..and contacts!!

woohoo!! i spent like 200 bucks..die lah...
have to get job!!
im more desperate now!!!

hmm ok.. to the "..." tagger..
firstly i dunnoe who u are..
i dun think u even have the right to criticise
my friends...
u dun noe them and u dun understand how they werk..
so u culd just back off...
i love them..that i know..
and i know they love me too
if they are not there literally
it doesnt mean they are never there..
so i think u just leave us be..

Aiyai...

2006-03-08T12:29:00.000+08:00

Oh what a day..

yey!!! everything between me and ian worked out!!

hahaha we're best of friends...dats about it..hehs

okies...other than giving a reality check on some people..
i did nothing..wait..
i did the house chores and i help my brother do his home econs project..
can u believe it..its so dumb..i hate home econs!! hahah i oni liked the food..
wat's the surprise there?hahaha..i dun like the veges thou..yuck!

i feel tired sei..so lethargic..oh yea im going fer the apm!!! anugerah planet musik!!
its a music awards fer the malay songs fer those who aren't familiar with it..

hmm ok relationships...love...uhhh mixed feelings? haha
man its sucky to be caught up in these stuff...
hais...i dun think im thinking shallow on some people...
im just stating what i think..
hais...i dunnoe wat to say ....so..good luck?

oh yey!! ian's back in church service!! haha
happy fer him..uh ok...
i think im ok fer now..have no regrets..
oh yea! i wanna go out wif u guys!!
i wanna go out!!!
watch movie??!
go out?!!
go!! go!go!!

Can't have ya

2006-03-07T14:35:00.000+08:00

urghh..
stop it please for your own sake..
seriously..
i have had enuff of ur reasoning...
we can't be together...

i told u over and over again..
ur making me realli mad..
i dun wan people hating me just cos im with u..
i hate it!!hate it!!

i feel like taking a frying pan
and knock on ur head!!
how blind can u be..
go pray or sumthing!
im sure there is a lot for u to pray about!

2006-03-06T19:23:00.000+08:00

Religion...

note* this is an entry i wuld like to share. not meaning to be disrespectful of the other religion.

sighss...here goes..

i like this guy..this guy likes me...
but we're both of different religion..
he's a devoted christian and
i'm a devoted muslim..

wat is more..
he is a church leader
a person who the young ones look up to
a person whose religion.. a priority

he believes in the BIBLE
and i, the QURAN
2 religions that have so many similarities
yet different in so many more ways

Christians are not to have a partner in anoder religion..
so this is a problem we were facing..
he was urged by his many church mates(they were church leaders too)
not to be with me...
they even have a word to word with me stating facts..

truthfully i was hurt beyond comprehension
felt my heart break a thousand pieces, stabbed a million of times
i felt like shit..i even hated the christians by then..
i was sarcastic to my many frens..
i hate them..i felt so betrayed
i was angry at the church leaders..angry wif van.

i then think..and think y are they like that..
but then i realised its not them..
and that i have to respect what they believe in..
i started to love them again...
think of all those nice memories we shared..
the luffter...

i loved them back and felt so guilty..
i apologised..
and now....

I LOVE THEM...AND CHERISH THEM..
IM SO SORRI IF I WAS HARSH..
I DID NOT MEAN IT..
maybe a lil? cos i was realli upset..
sorry...

i guess we have our differences...
hey ..thats life..
we cant change it..
im glad i have my muslim frens by my side
my christian frens...
aiya just glad dat all my frens are with me on this..

im still sad..but i cannot do anithing to change
its heartbreaking...

sorry long entry...=[

2006-03-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

DAT WAS SOOOO STUPID NISA!!

DUMB dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb!
dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb !
dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb !
dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb!
dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb!

stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid

im so stupid.
i hate that
im so sorri....

2006-03-02T20:01:00.000+08:00

don't tell me who i am!

I had my nails in striking pink.
yes.
striking.
its not that i wanted it in dat color.
but accidents do happen.

So i went to the class.
The gals were of cos like asking.
i dun mind.
and these guys were like saying.
ee why dat color?!
like seriously...i repeat i din want dat color
it was suppose to accompany the baby pink.

some of da guys were like ok dats it.
but this idiot kept rambling.
like seriously..
and kept saying "nisa this si soooo not u"
like stupidy has struck u or sumting?
u've only known me fer like half of a freaking year.
and u tell me dat?!
hello i use to color my nails ok?
doesn't mean i use tudong i cant do watever i like.
and i color my nails in watever color that pleases me.
the nails are mine.

how bloddy stupid can one get. seriously shuddup!
irritating basket case man..

and what do guys know anyway...stupidity of shits...
hmm maybe i'll color my hair pink.
striking pink!all pink!
good!

pity my hair can't be shown.
sickening.

urggh..damn pissed lah..

and my sister do not want to take her medication
and winds up in hospital
my god...just take the damn medicine can??
mum is screaming herself out..
cos i did not take care of her..
hah typical..

to all those idiots out there:

i am who i am.
u dun like me?
u dun like what i do?
u think u noe better? save it!
leave!

just leave...its better dat way.
it will save u frm my sarcasm.

2006-02-28T15:29:00.000+08:00

I'm so Freaking Bored...

now..i have finished cognitive..like so fast sia..first time...
and now im bored!!
like seriously..
all my crazy nincomptoops are gone...
hais...to IKEA!! idiot them lahz...

i hope van's feeling better...
*hugs*

this friday maybe ..MAYBE..
the class is going out together..

2006-02-25T09:05:00.000+08:00

missing you...

oh my god...im missing a lot of people...
i miss my family...
i miss my siblings alot ok...
im missing my animal farmers...
im missing vannesa lee..
vanessa soh too..hahaha
this is wierd having to type ur ser name..
i miss sharin.hope ur feeling better...
i miss jules..pris...and i miss YANI!!!
hahaks..
i miss my pink *uh hmmm*.. too...hais i searched under my bed already..
dun have...aiyai...
i miss my PJ01-02A people...them as in them in actual..
hais...
i miss playing bowling..
i wanna play!!
snooker too!!
i miss ice-cream and milkshakes...
i miss...myself...

2006-02-24T20:27:00.000+08:00

hmm...

this post if for that someone..
i feel that we're going apart...
u've been there fer me.
but lately u kinda pulled away..
did i angered u?
did i say something to hurt you?
i din mean it...

sorry...

brother will come home 2morro..but sister still has to stay for all other check ups..
haish..i miss them..
thanks to all who have given their prayers..
appreaciate it...

2006-02-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

*SOBsss*

argghh!!! my sis and bro are in hospital now!!!

bother had a freaking high fever....DENGUE fever!!! was rushed to the hospital jsut now..lucky mum was home....

Sister needs blood transfusion...i dunnoe wat now...mum is there wit them..
i feel...helpless...insecure...sick to the stomach...nervous...worried sick...

shit lah...sobss........

2006-02-20T01:01:00.000+08:00

Dunnoe..

i dunnoe wat i'm feeling these days..
emptyness i gues..i dunno..
does dat make me a robot?
incapable of feelings?
heck.

anyway...im currently awake at this moment of time..
seriously..its so sickening
i wanna tok to someone but who?
hahaha...pity..
they are busy i guess..

had fun toking to danIAL...
stupid him luff at me..
i was so spastic lah...
can hear it frm me on monday..

ur so gonna luff ur ass off lah..
spastic me..=[

* i dunnoe if i can take any of these pressure longer...*
*i hate it..hate hate hate*
*but im too tired to hate..wat am i rambling*

2006-02-16T14:16:00.000+08:00

Skipped Class!!

was sooo irritated...den yea wth rite..
syimah, shiyun and me..
we go library..
do crappy stuff ..muahaha...

thanks guys...fer listening to my crappy stuffs..
luv yas..

2006-02-13T20:23:00.000+08:00

VALENTINES'S DAY..

Tomorrow is the day...

wonder what it wuld be in RP..
first valentine in RP...

TODAY..
bullied as usual..
so no comments..

smile people...no dates?..
i'll be ur date!!
despite having one..hahah

2006-02-12T21:02:00.000+08:00

Cannot! Cannot! Cannot!!

oh gosh i think im falling for someone
but i can't!! he has a girlfriend!!
i din noe i was actualli falling fer him
until a few days ago..

he's nice lah..
can get a long very well
i like his company..
all my shitty and crappy stuff dissapears ..

hmm..but i cannot!!!
asked jules dear...
(she teased me first!)
she said she knew it..
aiyai..how?how??HOW???

hmm put tt behind me first lahz...
ok..updates!!
i dun realli quite like this class much as i used to
hais... i feel so dissapointed wif myself..
my actions, my speech...
arggh...

but i know im not the oni one wif this feeling!!
hee...=))

changed my skin..hope u guys like it..=)

2006-02-09T16:09:00.000+08:00

TODAY'S CULTURE!!

woo hoo...its cool man...
heh my team did the one wif the internet or mobile..
so fun lah..yani darls,nimmi and jannah helped..
arafah and her fren too..

ok bad news..syimah's fone is lost...
hmm mas and i are gonna ask the security later..
she may have put it in the store..
high chance its stolen..hope the ppl give it back..

now..in class...cos i freaking sing..
dat stupid barney lah!!
walau ehz...
make me sing....
stupid idiot...now i cant go home and stuck here
hais...

bye ppl..sharin i hope ur feeling ok..luv u babe..